Hey all,

Its been a month since my last post isn't it? I wonder how was everyone out there doing? To start my story, i've been quiet Buzy for the past month and expected to be buzy till the end of the Year 2011. This is normal in adultary life i guess ... especially to every working people. Like me, i've been involved with lots of outstation to Ranau, Pagalungan, Tawau and Sarawak. I enjoyed my work eventhough it was teriffically tiring.

Well, in this short period of time, not only i am buzy with my daily sceduled but also i am inchaged with problem (small and big) that coming non stop into my life ... and i admit these are all also normal in our living. Without the appearance of Mr Problem ... i guess you and i will never grew matured. But then most of the time, i persist on ignoring those problem and some of it flew without solution. ( I am not a good problem solver hihi) As Saying goes "time will heal" .. and thanks to Time because it really does heal the situation.

You know, sometimes come to the extent in which i felt " it is much more better if i don;t exist". I am tired of seeing , hearing, doing, acting and thinking of myself and people around me. untrustworthy, unloyal and betraying friend that i had ... I am tired of all this. Having a pet is more joyful than having a friend. But still I am happy that i had two best friend of me that never betray nor unloyal to  me. Thanks God i meet them,

Let stop talking about what i just wrote ... Since it is the countdown to Christmas, i realized that i haven't write or post any chirstmas wish to my families and relatives. Hope this coming Chirstmas Brings more joy and abundance in you and my life. MERRY CHRISTMAS in advanced.

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Nothing special happened today. I overslept till 10am and miss the Sunday Mass. My sister went  to work at 2pm and i spend my day watching korean movie via Youtube. It tooks me  long hours in order to finished watching 1 full movie because my Celcom broadband exceeded my daily GB usaged. Damn!!

Owh my Housemate (next rome) returned from Kampung. I heard her cleaning and washing. She is weird i guess ... barely speak and smile, and sometimes talk to the phone too loud (querral with her BF may be...). Regarding to my sister's, she did not answers question correctly. eg: Sister:: "Any rats problem in ur room?" "She::"yeah!! the Cockroach deserved to die" ... ???? what comes to your mind with that situation??

No one ring or text me today. Everybody was buzy with their own life. Gotta go ... my movie is playing now.

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Its Saturday and i don't feel the needs of getting out from my room. Moreover the novel that i told you i am about to read yesterday distract me from letting go of my eyes from it. "Wishes - Jude Deveraux" was a good novel. I love the characters the author put in the story and the plot of the story was fantastic. The author successfully invites me to read each words and each sentences so keenly and attentively. I hate Nellie younger sister's, Terel for her jealousy and wickedness. She was one who can pretend to be so saintly in front but so heinous at the back. However, ending of the story was very interesting and Terel received what she deserved for while Nellie eventually married to her dreams Mr. Charming and live happily after. Haha !! You need to read it by yourself for you to feel the amusement when reading it. Owh!! i finished reading the whole story at 6pm. (whole day reading worth pain to my back bones) huhu.

My sister came back from attaining the Saturday church at 2pm and she ended up taking her nap till 4.30pm. Her work scheduled today was at 5pm till 10pm. I was thinking of spending my night at the 1 Borneo watching movie so doing some window shopping but i am too lazy to step out from the main door. I rather spending my time reading and face booking than shopping alone and wasting money. ~~> i get my point so clear do i?? haha.

Owh forget about one thing. Samuel (my online friend) keeps calling me since yesterday and i makes all his calls "ignored". I never meet him personally you know. I knew him through chatting and face book. He was nice but uhh!! complicated to tell. Wish i never meets him in person either intentionally nor unintentionally. Ahh!! forget about him.

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My alarm woke me up at 6.30am. Struggling out from bed, with my half sleepy eye, i went to the washroom for morning shower and felt fresh afterwards. Its Friday and Holiday mood was still in me ... i wore semi formal blouse and pants to the office and decided to spend the whole day in the office. Went for breakfast at Kingfisher having Fried Mee Hun and warm Milo. These day i could't skip my breakfast or else my gastric will come out and its really painful. Victor and my others friend were buzy with their scheduled so i spend my rest hour with Online and eventually skip my lunch.

Off from work, We ( My sister, Harvey and i) went swimming at Kompleks sukan Likas. I still couldn't balanced up between my legs and hands while in the water. This makes me felt tired easily and struggling hard for some air. I guess i need some professional adviced and teaching for me to learned more. Same goes to my sister. i love swimming but i don;t know how to swim correctly.

I was thinking of stopping by at the Mc Donald for burger but i am out of cash in my wallets ... No way!! My sister's was going to spend her night with her Boyfrined and parent's in law tonight so guess i will be sleeping alone and eating alone. Without cash i couldn't demand more ... luckily i still have Rm5 with me .. including the coins. I decided going downstair and buying instant noodles for dinner. Yummm!! those noodles was nice. Haha.

Am going to read another Novel "wishes" by Jude Deeraux ... 278 pages .. guess i will just start reading it. Till then. 

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30  August 2011

Public holidays and 1st Raya for Muslim. I spend the whole day reading English Romance Novel "The Golden Swan" by Aileen Humphrey. Its had about 393 pages to go and was an adorable and lovable story. I read and read without realizing the time passing by. Uhh!! when i stop reading, its evening 5pm. I took my showers and dinner then continued with the reading again. Marilyn (my Hollander friend) text and telling me that she will be at Kota Kinabalu for one day 2morrow and wanted to spend the day with me. I say Ok but i had not idea on what to do tomorrow. Things will still on without planning though!!

31 August 2011

Its an independent days and 2nd day for Raya festival. I had one invitation from my JPN colleague, Faizul for the Open House at his family (Papar). I asked Victor if he want to join me, he say yes it was a good idea and needed me to pick him up at Beverly Hills. As being told, Marilyn flight depart at 11.10am and arrived hours later so i decided to pick Victor at about 12pm. Too bad my sister's can't join me. She needs to work.

Guess i had plenty of time before 12pm, i went to Kingfisher for a car washed and took my breakfast while waiting for my car. Because its public holidays, i paid RM12 for that simple car washed. Damn it!! its quite expensive than the regular price. 12pm shape, i reached Victor's house and we're going to fetch Marilyn at Malaysia Airlines Airport (MAS). Marilyn arrived at 12pm. I was still at victor's place when she text me that she's waiting for her luggage. Marilyn was with her 40kg travel bags at her back and 1 small school bag in front when i meet her at the airport. We were happy to see each other again  ... we have a long big hugs. She brought me some chocolates and a donut from Sandakan.

With or without her willingness, i brings her along to Papar (Open House). Victor's driving this time for i am still with my "L" licensed. Thanks to him. We had so much talking and laughing along the way to Papar. We arrived Papar at 2pm. Marilyn tried each food and cookies which was served and having a long chat with Faizul. Marilyn took a short nap on the way back to Kota Kinabalu.  After dropped her off at Borneo Global Backpacker, I sent Victor's home and will meet again at 7pm for dinner. He suggested me to take a  short rest at his Reflexology parlor (Asia City) while waiting the clock to hit 7pm and i agreed.

We went to the our favorite food stall to eat. As usual, Marilyn asked for shrimp and Victor for his Big fish (RM32) while me with my Tuna. We shared and enjoyed the food so much but victor doesn't felt good about the taste of the prawn, and Marilyn agreed while the fish ... its taste good and delicious. We paid RM69 for the dinner.

After dinner, Victor suggested us for happy hours at Cowboy Bar together with Vic's brother, Stanley and his agent, Idah. We Drink Whiskey and also go for Karaoke. Marilyn sang her favorite song (Frozen & La Is la Bonita - Madonna). We manage to finished 1 bottle of whiskey and i felt my head was spinning, my face warm and i was a little tipsy. Marilyn asked me to stop drinking because i am the one who will drove her back later. At 1am, we go for supper at Foh Sang and drove Marilyn back at 2am. Victor and the other enjoyed Marilyn's companionship very much.

I reached my room at 2.30am and my sister's was already with her dreamworld.

01 Sept 2011

Wake at 9am. I had a little headache and pushed myself to shower. Still thinking of laying down and closing my eyes but i couldn't sleep so i reached out for my Novel and had a reading till evening. Owh, i finished reading my previous 393 pages story book. It was a great book. I proceed to the other books "Touch and Go" by Michelle Rowen Which was also a very good Romance novel. Finished reading at 1am in the morning.

I am going to sleep ... need to wake up early for work tomorrow morning.

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After work, my sister (Marcellah), her Boyfriend (Harvey) and i went to Kompleks Likas for an hour swim. Harvey was good at swimming. He can even dive. My Sister, she though she was incapable of swimming but went pushed into deep water ~> about 6 feet dept, only she realized she swam good and also with styles. While me, trying to learn how to swim properly with the guide from Harvey. I had problem with balancing my hands and legs while in the water but i am able to helped myself floating on the waters.

After the swim, we went to the pilipin's market to eat. Victor's texting and told me that he need company for dinner so gladly i invited him to join us, he agreed and the four of us enjoyed our food so much. I go for usual dishes .. Grill tuna Fish with mango slices without rice. My sister and harvey ordered one full body big fish (RM10) .. not sure what fish was it but it big for two person to eat while Victor go for 1 shrimp and a fish .. a big one and one bowl rice. He finished all the foods and I am impressed. We paid about RM70 for all the dishes and Its after discount.

Because Victor's not driving his car earlier, i need to sent him back to Asia City (where he park his car). He was my Life insurance agent and also my former boss. I brought Life Insurance from him and i owe him RM480. I have to repay back the amount to him....Due to my conscious presents, I lost RM480 tonight. Its a huge amount for me.

I drove back home at 09:21pm.More Money wasted tonight!!

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Today was my last day hangging out with my new hallanders friend Marilyn. I am suppose to pick her up at 5.30pm for the Tun Fuad Stephens Hills climbing but we didn't make it. She was quiet tired from her Kiulu Rafting activities and she's planning on having some more relaxing activities such as Body / foot massage. I am okay with the changging plan as long as she is happy.

I brings her to Victor's family massage Centre at Asia City and she Paid Rm85 for 1 hour full body massage and an hour foot massage. I do treat myself with foot and shoulder massage and asked Vic to pay it for me first (no cash in my wallets .. too bad)

Marilyn is not feeling well. I didn;t realize it untill we went for a relaxing karaoke bar ~~>> Cowboy Bar not far from the Massage centre, with Victor, Stanley, Dave, daniel and Idah.  She start having cold and a fever. I did buy her some mushroom soup with bread and a grill sausage for dinner but unfortunately her fever's getting worse and she didn't even touch her food.

At last i have to say "sayonara" to the others and send her back to the lodge. I felt sorry for her. she is going for the Kinabalu hiking 2morrow and now she fall sick. Hope she will be okay 2morrow. She was a great and strong women i ever met and we hug so many time for the "goodbye".

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As planned, Marilyn talked to me about meeting at the same food stall to eat. I came with my sister "Marcellah". Marilyn eat 6 large shrimp with mix seaweed salad, fish salad and some slices of mango. As for me, i go for the same Grill Tuna fish (RM8) ~~>( my Favorite), coconut drink and mango slices and my sister eat whatever is served.

We met a Korean Couple. they sat across from us. I learned a few Korean Words from them. They are cute together and they ate a lot. Marilyn said I am so natural and easily make friends then  in future  no worries of traveling alone like she did. I admitted the fact and it gave me more spirit in learning English conversation.

After our meal, we (Marilyn, my sister and i) went to Tanjung Aru beach for some night walk. Marilyn loves the beaches .. the sea air ...the vibration sound of the wave ... she totally was a nature types and so do i. We sat together at the Tanjung Aru Beach cafe to Chat and to see the live band. We enjoyed our large glass of Pina Colada ( taste like coconut and its good) and Big pitches of frozen Margarita ( Ice blended with Margarita ~~>Loved it). Marilyn enjoyed the night with her cowboy hat at her head. Every time we request a song the live band will play our sone request. Marilyn went for the "sisya" smoking with an Apply flavour. I had tried some sip but damn the smoke just went through my nose and i am coughing hard. The Band playing the "TANAK KAMPUNG" song and i taugh Marilyn our traditional dance (Sumazau) and it was fun and was a craziest night for me. Robin, the in charge waiter are kind and nice .. he is Singaporian. He speaks good English and Marilyn Likes him.


I sent Marilyn back at 00:15am. We had a great Night.

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I meet a new Friend ~~Marilyn~~ Sweet and gorgeous Dutch lady with a Malaysian Looks while having my favourite Grill Tuna Fish at Pilipin's market. At first we were just talking about Mount Kinabalu and i kind of comfortable chatting and talking with her ... We eventually became friend and i offered her a day trip around the heart of Kota Kinabalu... she seems exicted and curious.

At 10.30am, i go and pick her up at her lodges (Borneo Global Backpacker) and show her around 1 Borneo. When asked what would she have for Brunch ... she said "surprise me!!" ... well i surprise her with 1B apple Food court coz i m going to take rice and fish for lunch. She Did ask for half bowl rice but eventually didn't finished it. ~~~> funny huh!!

We decided to go for a window shopping around the mall and we do some archery, dancing games, and also karaoke... She said i do have a nice voice but i don't think i do coz i sing badly and its makes my earache. We Laugh and laugh and makes a lot of crazy things too. hahaha.

evening about 09pm, we watched the new release English Movie Final Destination 5. Its more to a Gruesome bloody death scent and nobody survived. I can't control myself from screaming ... i loves the director. After the movie, i send Marilyn home and i love the way i spend my day.

Will be taking dinner with her 2morrow at the same Food Stall.

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I trully hate to publish this post in here but who's gonna care about things happen to me right? This happened to me the day before when i accidentally happen to bumped into my ex-boyfriend with his new lover at 1 Borneo Hypermall.

Indirectly to mind that I bumped into him on that day and that how STUPID my action on the situation. I also knew that he was aware of my existance at that time. My mood totally changed from "red" to "black" and my reaction was :: --> control anxiety by behaving in a store shopping shoes and, finally bought a pair of shoes. 


I can not described my actual feelings at the time, may be anxious, be devastated, perhaps embarrassed, and even panic. What comes to mind was to avoid face to face with Him. I wonder if whether he be like me and also tried not to encounters with me? Though far from my mind to feel hurt or jealous of their happiness together because i believe i am entitled to happiness, not by him (ex-bf) but by God's own candidate.


What you will do if bumped into a former boyfriend / girl in a place like that?

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WHAT??

WHY??

DAMN!!

What so Good about u? Why People like u ever come cross to my life? Damn!! I Freaking Hate Everything about U!! 

EXCUSE ME!!

PLEASE!!!!

Excuse Me .... Is that ALL u wanted in life? ... Proceed with it ... nothing to do with me anyway!!

Owh Please ... I Hate to be alert on THINGS about U.

~~~>> SO DAMN HATE U <<~~~~~ 

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Blog ... why do people always "care" or "busybody" on others people life? Doesn't they have much more important than gossiping on others? I don't quite sure Why ... but logically, Human being are like that.

Jump to my story ...People are so annoying to talk about my ex-BF. Do they think i really care about Him? it is no harm for being updated every thing about him but Why should they keep me posted on those stuff?? ..Like recently i am being told that my Ex-BF has a new Beautiful and elegant GIRLFRIEND ... holding hands while walking into a cinema...So what?? does this has anything relates to me? I DON'T THINK SO. 

So Please .... Are they trying to makes me Jealous so that i ruins my days? EXCUSE ME!! this is not me. I AM A TOUGH GIRLS and i don;t simply put myself down for things like this. moreover, He has his own RIGHT on choosing his Friend .. What more for a GIRLFRIEND (Special GF i mean). Let Both them go free ... They needed each other so NO MORE GOSSIPING on them COMES to my Knowledge PLEASE!!

And People (whoever referred) ...  I HAVE NOTHING TO DO WITH HIM anymore!! Please SHUT the Hell of Him out from me...Can u? ~~~~>> LIKE THAT I CARE!!

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You're everything i thought u never were

And nothing could i thought u would've been

But still you live inside of Me

So tell me How is that ...

You're the only one i wish i could forget

the only one I love to not forgive

And though You Broke my Heart

You're the only one...

And though there are time i Hate You cause i Can't erase

The times that you hurt me and put tears on my face

and even now when i hate you it pains me to say

I know i'll be there at the end of the day...

Compose

I don't wanna be without you babe!!

(its a super nice song sang by Beyonce and Those Lyrics "charge a higher Price" on me)

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Yesterday i felt a bit irritated by my sister's comment on her Facebook...am not sure whether i put too much emotion or else when reading it but 1 thing for sure I felt uneasy with those words that she had post. When it comes to my "relationship" story .. No deal nor advise from someone like my sister's are accepted. Moreover "My life, My rules, My choice".

But then i agree with her about "Time Heal But Never will erase". This really put a mark on me, myself. She knew about my past .. I admit it and she knew how much i suffered from my Broken Relationship ... She also knew that even my heart do heals by time but the remains never will erase ... (Like that i care!!) anyhow Life must go on and stay with the Plan that being arranged by HIM, Lord almighty.

I am sorry to post this on my Blog but as usual this is only a way to shout out my little box of mind.

-Peace no war- ... LOVE U Sis (^_^)

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This week will be my last week here in JPN Keningau....N next week i'll be in JPN Kota Kinabalu. Nothing much to talk about my life in Keningau but I enjoyed my life here a lot. Be able to make lots of new friend N have all kind of memorable sweet memory is the best words i can share about HERE. (^_^)

After all this week will be a Very Buzy Week !! [can't wait next week to come]

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2 weeks from now, i am going to leave JPN Keningau and transfer to JPN KK again. I am fairly happy for being under the same Unit again. It doesn't mean i don't like working here in Keningau but frankly saying here i learn less ---> "Less work more fun" this is not my types of career ... I prefer "more works more fun less stress" . Does my transfer promise me these kind of working surrounding? i nvr know but will try to adapt with the new office later.

Next week I will be very very busy with Outstation to Kudat and only will move out from my old rental home after that. Things goes by too fast ... when i open my eyes 2morow hopes things will be differ and more exciting.

Real thing is, I am worry about my new office since i am having this so call "disagreement" with the Head of my yet to be Unit before. (hehe) but thanks to my head of department for the encouragement and motivation not to think much on that matters. (huhu)

Whatever happens next ... happen!! I am highly hoping that EVERYTHING WILL BE OKEY (^_^)

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Blog,

Am i too pathetic hoping for a miracles to happen? I wanna be like those girls in the happy ending fairy tales story---> having a real HERO who can loves me as what i am, care for me in whatever circumstances and prepared to be my knight whenever i am in trouble? Well i guess i am too demanding isn't it?

I am tired of being asked about my "LIFE PARTNER". What would be the polite words that i should say to defense myself? The problem is, I am not prepare for a new open or even serious relationship since my last "BROKEN" relationship yet. (GOD knows y)

My last relationship, Its a stupid serious relationship. The Man that i presume as a "HERO" was a "COWARD" instead. I am being abundant in the middle of a "hard life fight" but luckily i survived those fight with a determination and prayers ( I am a strong girlz right)

People say "good girl belongs to a good man" how far does it true? i can't tell but one thing that truly help me moving on ---->> Don't Chase ... Let GOD works HIS plan on You.

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03 Jun 2011

~ Wake up quiet early this morning ( at 7.30am).
~ Breakfast with Roti Canai & Nasi Goreng + Tea.
~ Go Shopping at MYDIN Hypermall at Pekan Terenganu ( Brought some perfume and T-shirt)
~ Stop by to the Terenganu Pasar ( Brought some Keropok Lekor ) to bring back Sabah.
~ Lunch ---> Sambal Belacan, Budu, Fresh Tomato, fried fish, Soup singgang (ikan)--> eating without spoon and fork makes the food more tasty hehe.
~ Visiting PLKN Marang Kota Bharu ... Stopping by for Otak-otak & Satar ( fish fillet + coconut grilled inside the coconut leaf (thatch).
~ At Night, v have a great BBQ ( Chicken, Prawn and Hotdog ). Eat with laugh and words ( i enjoyed the night ).
~ 2morro going back KL ... Hope to Come here again soon hehe
~ gotta Go ... too sleepy !!

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02nd Jun 2011

~ 2nd day at Batu Burok Terenganu. (^_^)

~ Breakfast with Nasi Goreng Kampung + Non Cook Baby Cucumber (Ulam)

~ Noon ---> Journey to Muzium Terengganu (v have a lot of fun) Unfortunately This pace is a No Camera Area so there are no Picture being captured inside the Muzium. But then at the outside .. Wow!! interesting and very unique building design (from what i can say it's amazing). Will Upload those pic later for the journey.

~ Direct to the Masjid Kristal (situated not too far away from the muzium). Again v are not allowed to step inside the mosque (masid) ... the design is totally creative and amazing. (will let u guys see those pic later)

~ Evening ---> Eating nasi Ayam at Terengganu Town ( delicious Chicken Rice )

~ Very tired for the walk and the heat (can't stand the heat ... too hot) V decided to take a walk at pasar Terenganu. I brought some souvenir, Turtle doll, baby blanket and Kain sarong. these things were cheap and reasonable price were given here.

~ After the walk ... we going back home for relaxing time.

~ We taking our night bath/shower with the well (perigi) water. Its a great and excited experience i ever had. Pulling the water from inside the well and taking bath with kain sarong (tradisional way of Chong Liang) kinda fun.

~ For Supper, V r being served with Hot tea and Kuih Keramat (tasted kind like those cha kueh in sabah).

~ 2morrow Dun know where we will headed to. We will just wait and see.

~ Nite People!!

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31st Mei 2011

~ Breakfast with Nasi Lemak at Taman keramat.
~ Window shopping at JUSCO keramat,KL ---->> Now i Know where do the Academy Fantasia Participant Practice their song and making a Life Diary. ---> meetng Ning Baizura at JUSCO but Nvr had the opportunity for a snap.
~ At Noon ... preparing for a Long Journey To Terengganu (Batu Burok)
~ Stop at every stopping center for fresh air.
~ Arrive at Kampung Batu Burok Terenganu at 9pm. (about 8 hours Long Journey)

1st Jun 2011

~ What a ashame!!!! wake up at 8am --->> Breakfast being prepared (*~*)
~ Proceed with the Plan to Tasik kenyir .... I have a lot of fun and all the expenses for food and fee is FOC ( My friend;s Brother in charge of all the expenses) ---> LUCKY isn't it ?
~ To Taman Herba and Tasik kenyir Waterfall. We are able taking a lot of happy and fun picture. hehe
~ Night, I learned how to cook the Sambal Bilis (for nasi Lemak) and Mee Hun Goreng ( terengganu styles).
~ Kind of fall for the Ikan Lekor ... tasty and delicious (we dun have it in Sabah)
~ Can't wait for 2morrow excitement.
~ Now better go ... need to wake up early 2morow.
~ Nite!!!

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Today, Life's a bit busy .. busy with work, busy with thought, busy with friend, shortly ... today is a busy day. Most of my staff gone to outstation for a week and some were taking their leave while i am taking over their task. What a mess of business but still it makes me feel good because my time wasted with a meaningful new exposure and experience.

Luckily, stress does not conquer me and all my task finished with fulfillment and satisfaction. (^_^)

I AM HAPPY!! yeah!!

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There are a lot of benefits working with the government .... one of it was A fix amount of salary and fix date of salary day. Today just happened to be Salary day for government workers. I am not excluded from today excitement . (^_^)

When talking about salary day ... sure Mr.($_$) is always in our mind. Fix $$ means we need to budget every single cent for spending and saving. Every month we tend to spend exceeding our salary which mean in a simple words we spend more than what we get. This is what people always do ... I am doing the same. haha

Believe me no one in this world is clean from debt. RMXXXX.XX is credited to our bank account but after being deduct to the debt ... RMXXXX.XX became RmXXX ( whats more for spending on our daily expenses?). It is easy for us to budget our $$ in papers but to put it into action, needs some discipline and commitment.

As for me, I am trying hard to save at least 10% from my salary to ASB (which i believe gives a high returns in the future). 5% provided for paying Insurance and the balanced for others expenses such as paying personal Loan, Cars, and others utilities. So ... my point is, whats the use of this fix salary if we could not put a side a little for our future sake? I should remind you and myself as well to not to forget the "SAVING" word.

Do you think RMxxxx.xx that we (government workers) get every month is enough..?? The answered is NEVER ENOUGH. Whatever amount Our salary is, if we fail to stick to what have we budgets, it will never enough for our living.

Remember to save 10% out of our salary for the future...(^_^) Happy salary day!!

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Few and far between i am complaining about things that i hate. But today i just did. To be exact, i am about to express my "un-satisfaction" to this blog since yesterday but my internet doesn't allows me to do so.

just yesterday, i am represent my department attaining "Kaamatan" at Dewan Arkib, Keningau and looking for a parking Lot But what i saw was ... there are no parking available and police in charge in arranging parking lot for VIP. Then with a polite and manner, i am asking help for one parking Lot.

"I don't know, but here is only for VIP's reserved" ... that was the answered given by the police. I am stuck ... and almost having a fight with him (police). if only cars from my back keep honing, sure there will be a fight on that moment. Doesn't they prepared enough Parking space for "Less Important" but "still Important" person ( at least i came because being asked and invite to represents my Department) for such events..??

Who does he meant by VIP anyway? Why there should be an invitation to any department for any event if they Does not refer them as a VIP too..?? I mean what the used of that invitation..?? do you think i would come to such crowd if it was not for the sake of My department..?? Think about it?

eventually i found out one parking lot not too far from the "Dewan Arkib" and needs to walked with my high hills crossing the road. You see this makes my day down and i decided to join that event only half day. My mood fade and my focus out. I rather stay at home doing my things than wasting my time with such rude and out of satisfaction situation.

Then this morning, One of the public comes to me and asking my favour for A certified true signature for her Identity card and birth certificate. this does not bother me because that was a part of my duty too but the way she asked me makes me want to dump all her documents to the dustbin.

"mau buat pengesahan yang ini ar Moi" ... the words "moi" is not suit to be spoke at any government department. We as a government workers never allowed to used those impolite words to public but why public can do so..?? After finished signing her documents, i said "next time if u r happened to deal with any department, watch ur words, nvr used the "amoi" word as to refer anyone".

In my opinion, be it at any department, organization or in daily lives, i prefer not to use the "amoi" word to refer someone or somebody (whats more if v are not friend) . doesn't matter if i happened to be in a restaurant or coffee shop. Everyone have a name and better refer a person directly to their name and not "Amoi" or "mandak".

People here needs to change. this is only my opinion.

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Guess what i successfully making a decision accompanying this old Friend of mine going back "Kampung". Seriously, i never plan on this before but as usual Flexible in life sometimes rewards a great opportunity and experience...do u agree with me?

Most of the time, we tend to stick for one Plan without any others alternative right!! this happened to the old me but then when we old enough (matured) to think, we can decide whether or not the things we are doing is good or not. (agree again don't you?) ... its up to you to make a decision anyway. haha.

Here am i now at Kampung Magatang having a funky Friday night and waiting for a Wonderful fun and enjoyable Saturday morning tomorrow. hehe

well, guess thats all for now. Just letting u guys knows that i am flexible in doing anything to my life .... same goes to you out there ....learn to be a little more flexible worth you a lot.

....Flexible is my Priority in lives ....

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Friendship is another word that describe how lovely we are as human being. But when comes to what types of friends suited to yourself, we absolutely will looking for a few criteria. (doesn't mean we being choosy in selecting friend) As for me, it is a difficult thing to make friend and i choose only those who really "having the same mind set" friends. I remember when i was in high school, i have one very close and best friend of mine. ) Of course i learned a lot about life from her but our friendship turns to upside down when times goes by and we both growing matured. (Thanks to her for once being my close @ best buddy).... l ̲̅ə̲̅٨̲̅٥̲̅٦̲̅]

Things changed when i entered Pre-University life (Form 6). My perseption of friendship differ now and here i meet a lot of new friends...(well entering new school is cool and challenging). although she (my x-BFF)was also entering the same school but our friendship relationship seems like "stuck" & "die" ... was it cause by the environment or changing in attitude? i never know.

(◡‿◡✿) ... aside from making a new friend, i meet a guys (real handsome and charming) who shows me what is "LOVE" relationship for the 1st time. You see ... Pre-U two years time really means something to me. Hahaha. Owh I forget to mention about who and what types was my New Best buddies here.

At 1st, i have nobody since i exchange my class from literature class to Economic class. Beside not knowing anything about my new subject, i knew no body in specific too. how am i going to survive this term..??

Luckily i found out a group of best friend (3 people - Pet,Lyde & alice) that also looking for a members to their group on that time... so without hesitated, i official joined their group and we became best buddies since then.

How do we managed to survive Our Friendship..??

Will catch with u later....

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Dear blog, Today 17th Mei 2011 fall on public Holiday, that is for giving space to Indian people celebrating Wesak day....coincidentally, today is also one of an important date for me to remember since 8 years backward...and how come i can easily vanished today on my diaries each year?? I mean i used to highlight each 17th Mei each years since 2004....its a habit and i am doing it on purpose ... so that i will never neglect today from my set of thinking/mind haha....and lucky for my ex Boyfriend ... yeah!! He should be pround to have an Ex”esss that still obssess to remember his birthday. And Guys .... do you think he is lucky or i am a fool for doing so..??

What a mess in me...u know i had been preparing a birthday card (done it with my own creativity) in hope that i can hand it to him by today but what i get now is just a grief and dismay..?? i don’t know but i am eager to hand him that birthday card over but scared and afraid of rejection inside me preventing me from doing so. I eventually ending up keeping this card as one of my collection and memory. (I am a Fool Again...don’t you agree??) At the same time, my heart and my mind couldn’t keep Him out from my thinking since 2 days ago...decided whether to send him a great birthday wish via SMS but a part of me saying that “are u insane...do u want him to think that u r chasing him..?? wouldn't u mind if he called u a fool..?? this is my clear side of so called “PRIDE@EGO” that preventing me from doing so..?? i don’t know. But then, you want to know the story...?? i ended up to keep on struggling to be the last person to wish him. (i am not sure if i m the last but i remember sending him the birthday text at 21:00pm) another fool story again right .... But Isn’t it good enough for me to do so than stand for my first option to just text him tomorrow for a belated wish and pretending that i am totally forget about his birthday? I am dying for doing so u know.

Owh Gosh!! What a bewildered day for me today. Thanks to the “little” part of me that pushing me not to be so “EGO” this time. I hope he is happy and full of smile when receiving my text. One thing makes me wonder and keep wondering....”AM I STILL IN LOVE WITH HIM..??” owh GOD...Help me.

This is the detail of the text i send and i receive back ...

A: Hi...u r step-in another stair this year ...i wanna wish u Happy Birthday 27th. Keep Smiling, keep Moving, Keep fighting and owez keep In touch. Happy Birthday Henry ... (Hope i m d last person to wish u this) hehehe...Mea.

B:Hi there dear friend Mea. I thank you for that wish. I appreciate it very much. I wish u all the best of lucks in whatever u do in your life. Hey don;t give up mea (^_^).

A: I won’t and nvr will give up that easily since i m a bleesed child and a strong woman. Hahaha.dun worry. U too Keep Fighting in life and nvr give up. Cheers to you. Yay!!

B:: ..... I(no more replies...)

I hate it when i became weak by a simple and clear msg like that. I can't stop from letting my heart ache and my eyes dropping a tears and keep saying “keep moving mea .... he is nothing, he is just an old friend of yours” ... (only to persuade myself to not thinking much on him). This gonna be the last text i m sending him this year. (^_^) I need to be strong and cheers for still having GOD to take care of me and to LOVE me tenderly. Still.......
*******HAPPY BIRTHDAY HENRY*******

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hey Blog , Feel like really want to write something on you but the the idea of "what to write" seem doesn't flow in at this moment. I wonder why others blogger can easily put down their views or ideas so confidently and smoothly.?? (^~^). This makes me feel irritated by my own brain. (And of course envy to the others blogger)! well to start my story, i was about to blame my work and the office. haha!! I am stuck in the office whole day and lack of focus in everything that i do. Always i was wondering if i could do better in my career and my life ... I bet people will think "u r lucky mea ... working with the government and getting a fix salary month without worry .. what else do you want..??" Let me tell you Blog, that i appreciated it for become one of the government "coolie" and free from financial worried but there is something that still "here" that i could have done to satisfied myself. "what was it.>?/" am totally have no idea. When comes to friends,,, No!! i have a lot of friend to be with but this is not the problem i am facing.Family..?? emmm!! may be but not a major question till i can't handle it well. So what was it?? if only i can answered you on the spot then its no use to write on you right!! there are so many "things" in my mind that i haven't achieve yet!! and this so called "things" is inexplicable and abstract. I need to act fast ... avoid procrastination and postponement. I am sorry Blog to let my feeling and emotion cross you and the word "WAKE UP MeA" is the most finest thing for me to throw all this unknown feeling just now. .....WAKE UP MEA!!.... ***************************************************Ciao!!........

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UKB's Activities to Pulau Tanjung Paras on 27 April 2011. The island is not far from Lahad Datu City ... only taken about 20 minits of your time to cross the ocean (if i am not mistaken). People there lives their life based on sea source. They build their houses on the sea. I guess people here ate a lot of seafood. (Fish, Shrimp, crabs, shellfish etc ...) What so funny about this Island was ... Their toilets. you better think twice whether or not to used their toilet ... for me, i will stand on my urination and bowel movement as long as i can than using their facilities here. Just imagine ... everything we thrown ... ended up to the sea, and so does if we were about using their toilet.LOL.(thats a funny part) and i could not imagine how they can tolerate their daily lives that way ... just assumed they "used to it" these lifestyle already. LOL!! This Video is just a part of UKB's Journey where we at UKB's need to be healthy ... both physically and mentally so that we can brings up Positives issues not only to Our Department but also to our individual self. Till then and enjoy the short video ...

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hi people ... its been months since my last post isn't? well just assume that i am handling my lives so hard till no ideas come cross my little box of mind for blogging. LOL. Last week i attained this talk about Melelia Product and the speakers was Datin st.Stella herself. i may not know her personally but from my line of knowledge she is one of the User and also the founder of Melelia itself and from the way she gives the talk on stage, i can say she was a very capable and a great speaker. (even tough she give her talk in chinese : luckyly i can still understand her) there are a few words that sink deep into my mind but then 1 that i remember the most was about fairness. She Said "we human must not look for fairness because the world is not fair essentially but if we look forward for balance then we will live happily and free from emotional problem". I believe that these sentences able to makes my mind actively thinking and process those words into info ---->> that's why i could still recall each words...LoL. when i refresh back our daily lives, we tend to say "ohh this is not right!!" ... "that's not fair!!" and "this not fair!!" ... hey come on ... let us supplant the "fair" words into "balance". Just admit the fact of opportunity cost always occurred in our lives. so do you think this opportunity Cost isn't fair? Its all about our choice... of course based on our needs not desire. Lets put it together ... whatsoever is the circumstances .... please don't look for fairness but instead we comes to the solution of balances because we Human tend to complained than resolved one situation. umm Mmm!! Fair Vs Bslance --->> I can't give u some example on this because i don't understand either what she (the Speaker)means by "balance" to ... its up to us to decide what's good and what's wrong in our daily lives. well then ... gotta go ... just want to gives some update to my blog anyway!! have a great day.

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Hello people, early this morning i received a massage saying " Happy First Friday of the year 2011" and i end up with a smile and chuckle for a second ... and of course i didn't reply back. This beautiful funny message makes my curiosity of the "Friday the 13th" arose and i had done some reading about the freaky "myths" about the urban legend unlucky Friday the 13th and how people being paranoid and having fear of the number 13. Most of the article i read stipulated that people in U.K believe the old superstition of Friday the 13th. They believe the risk of hospital admission as a result of a transport accident may be increased on that day and research had been conduct to revealed the truth about this urban legand Friday 13th. What do you people think about it? I mean doesn't the uncertainty of Risk in Life happen everyday? if it do not happen to us... may be there are some other people in other country that encounter with the uncertainty eg: accident, death, hospital admission etc. Risk occurs in daily basis for it doesn’t choose or select what date or even time. so why should we afraid of the Friday the 13? A part of that, there are also some belief about the Friday Night..or in Malay we call it "Malam Jumaat". this are other thing that doesn't make any sense for they believe all the evil and bad Spirit (Ghost) are freed on that night and this happen every Friday night. come on ... do you really believe on that? Just count how many weeks (Friday night) we have in a year? Does this make sense to you? For me myself, i do believe in other entities that live together surround us but i never seen one or withness the existance of these creature... do they look ugly or vise versa? I had no idea. Well people, today is eventually the first Friday of the Year 2011 and be this day brings more luck and opportunity through the year. Cheersss people and Happy Friday.

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