"Mea, i need your help on ....." -> 1st request granted and help given with Sincere Heart.

"Mea, Can you help me ...." -> 2nd request also done with full green light .

"Mea, I need your favour ..." -> 3th times ... my eyebrows start to shrink.

How about the next and next "Help" needed by the same person on the same matter in the same situation? What would you think of this person? Are you still going or be able to lend your hands or your energies or your time for that person? How if this situation continueous day by day? Aren't you going to start questioning your sincerity on helping her/him? And when you do, do you still intend to give your best help for that particular person? Would you agree when i say "we have our own level of compassion".

I tell you what ... Compassionate nature is essential in our personal life but when the level of "Patience" reached to the highest level, we can't even tell the difference between compassion and Disgust. Yeah!! i know i shouldn't wrote about this but this is what i eventually felt for the past month. When i finally reached the peak of the "patient", Sincerity become the question and at one point i started to mumbling and even want him/her to suffer a while before help is given. (the part that i hate the most) but i can't resist from respond late on the request and more worst declined to help..(then fell guilty later).

I did read few books about the miracle of helping others. All those stories are about inpirational and spiritual stories that warms the heart of the readers (including myself). Well, Reality are suck!! when we try to become a Good Samaritan for others, some will take advantages on your kindness and generousity. When we say "No" ... the question on "how if i am the person who in need?" came cross to our little box of mind. While we say "Yes" but infact "disgust" inside is a burden to our own self and can eventually became a "sin" because of insincerity. (God forgive me, i pray).

In fact my belief is "when you good with others, others will also treat you good in return" but i seems don't see the knot in it. Seriously this trully challege me on my good deeds & shake my belief a lot. I know everyone of us is not perfect but how i wish i can keep up my faith on believing that "be good" "no to Jelousy" "give a helping hand" will eventually lead to perfection of life.

For you out there who is reading this right now ... no offences ... this short writting of me is merely for sharing and as a reminder for me as well so that next time i'll always "help" with a Sincere heart!!

~m3@~

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People ... do you think making friend is hard? How about keeping a friend when you have one ... is it hard? Making friend to a total stranger? Say like a foreigner? or Everyone that you bumped with? 

I love making friends and meeting new people a lot .. mostly foreigner but the fact is ... it came to my dismay that i am not a good English spoken person so at times it will be very difficult for me to respond to whatever question or topic that being asked or discussed....But came to the point that i think it depends to which country does your new foreigner friends come from. Say if your new friend is from other Asian Country like Korea, then i have the feeling that i speak English more fluent than they do...(Exaggerating !!) but for country that English was their mother tongue ... then i believed i tent to ->back off<- a bit hahaha.

Lucky to have a friend (Yvonne) who speak very fluent English ... (Will write about her on the next post). When come to talking.... She will be the on who do the talk. LOL. She even good as a translator and I love being with her for her intelligent and bright character . (i said i will talk about her soon ... lets jump to the sweet moment Yvonne & I spent with Malcolm, the England man)

Malcolm was a nice English Man. He is older than my dad age and he is flexible, open minded type of person and he teach a lot of new English words ( together with the pronunciation) and told a few stories and tale (one of unforgettable story is about The True Story Of The Elephant Man) - You even can browse the story in Wikipedia. Also he is good in telling jokes ... ->LOL<-  

With a short time spent with him, i kind of comfortable to be around him. Even when i speak wrong English, he never laugh but instead corrected me with some respect ... Thanks Malcolm!! In returned, Yvonne & i treat him visiting a few interesting places in KK. We went to Lok Kawi Zoo, Upside Down House (Rumah Terbalik), Tamparuli hanging Bridge,  Tun Fuad Stephen Jogging Track , Famous BB Cafe Live Band and show him around KK at night. We have had a good chat after all ... especially Yvonne, both them talked about a lot of things and i meanwhile became a very good listener to them. Lolx.

Even though Malcolm is not my direct acquaintance but yet through Yvonne i am happy to be given the opportunity to met Him. I really Hope He enjoys his stay at KK for that few days. So people, regardless of whatever ways do we meet our friend & Acquaintance, do appreciate each moment you spend with them & treat them good  for every person that step in & out from Our life, there must be "something" that we learn from them. 

~m3@~

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I have Been born as a Malaysian 27 years after the announcement of the Independent Day of Malaysia. Since after my birth, I belong to Malaysia and i am so grateful being the citizen to one of the Democratic country in the world. (i can't imagine myself belongs to other countries) ...Even  sometimes there are moment when i felt that other countries are much much more better than here and most of the time i look high on other developed country that excelled in not only their education system but also in many ways. But apparently, i enjoy my life in My own Country. yeah!! well most of the tourist & Traveler loves Malaysia specifically Borneo for its beauty and culture. 

Does it true that "History will repeat itself"?? Or [History will not repeat itself ]?? Yes ... some point we need to admit that history will repeat again but not as the same situation or not as the same severity as before. People will aware and will takes early precaution to prevent from the same things to happen twice and if it does ... it will not as bad as before. What do you say about it? All for the while, School had teach us about the History of Malaysia and How Malaysia being rules by others British Colony & the process on how Malaysia claiming for become an Independence County .. all the facts are being taught in primary school, even secondary untill to the University and believe me for those who hate facts ... History was a boring subject. hahaha. But then we all still need to aware a bit about History because History may repeat itself ... who knows????

This year Independent Day was a very fantastic and great day to me. I joined the parade representing our department. There are many others government department and schools unit that also involved  in the parade. Each Parade consist of 36 person and i am one out of 36 person of our department. The good news : It was a nice day because its windy and we hardly see the sun. Thanks God!! 

Along with the Parade show, there are others activities and performance shows by other non Uniforms Department .... tell you what, this year Independent Gimmick was the most happening Event ever with the air plane and helicopter crossing by bringing the National Flag .... Crowds on the street are clapping and enjoying the gimmick. (i am not excluded!!) at least their (whoever the crowds is) indirectly support shows great respect to the Country and the Government of where they belongs to. Come on!! every country has it own flaw though. So be grateful to every benefits that been given by the government today.

Happy Independent Day to all Malaysian.

-m3@-

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Congratz ...Congratz!! My dear Best Friend's Alice. What to say ... I am "jelous" on your engagement but i am not "ENVY" it at all. Hahaha. You look so Happy and Excited so here I am Happy together for you too ... What's a "Best friend" should be for if Not sharing the happiness of yours. Right???? uhhh ~> remembering that mine is still too far to go.

Here ... on Sarturday 04 August 2012 was my Best Friend Alice Big Day. Tell you what, she was all excited, nervous, happy, shy and completely going insane since 2 days before her real engagement day. But Everything was under control and she finally relieves from her anxiety of worrying about her Important Day. The excitement that Lydia and i show, helped her a lot in coping her inquietude. My origin plan to have a sleepover at Alice's house cancelled because of some changes in plan. So i'll be staying at Lydia's for 2 night and i think it will be alright with Alice. 

Due to some miscommunication,  i arrived at Alice's 10 minute before 10.30am and Hell!! I am SOoo late for Alice Makeover. She doesn't say much but i know deep inside her shows some anger. There is not time for an explanation and i asked her to be really really quick to change her clothes and be ready for the make up. Unfortunately Stephan's car was "pop" outside before i even started my task. Calm...calm...everything will be okay!. Few minutes later, Stephan's other friend's and relative's also showing up. Alice starting to be Panic plus her sister's making so much annoying assumption that could drive The three of us ( Alice, Lydia & i) going crazy.

I finished Alice make up real quick and asked for Lydia help on Her hair side. "Whatever happens, happened" .. That was some sort of solution for our unwell prepared situation. LOL laugh Out Loud. Alice was now too late showing herself out for the ceremony. everyone was in the living room waiting for her ... the heads of the village continued saying out about the rules and stipulated on the agreement between Alice & Stephan's family without Alice beside. Felt Pity & Guilt for her!! But its okay since all the rules will be on paper. She can still read and ask to any confusion. Gosh!!

Time for signing the agreement came then only we finished completely with Alice. Oppss!! Everyone laughing when Alice make a slow run and "zappp" sit besides Stephen. Its wasn't funny at all ... they only making fun of her for sure. Luckily Alice was so easy going type and everyone was also amazed by her natural, simple and humble character. Stephen was so Lucky to OWNed Her hahaha.

Now ... showing time .... i present to you some picture of the Engagement ceremony....
 

Moment to remember ... signing the engagement agreement and exchanging ring.

Exchanging Ring ... giving engagement present and "Ang Pau"

Family & Friend of Stephen N Alice

Some snap ... Moment to remember between Stephen & Alice

Sweet!!

The Bless of God's be always with both you Alice & Stephen. The end.

~m3@~

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While goggling on "ways to ... " the words "How to get Over Your First Love" and all stuffs about broken relationship appeared on my computer screen ... it is not that i intentionally looking for it but then i can't let my finger from not to click one of link on How To Get Over Your First Love / Ex.

http://www.wikihow.com/Get-Over-Your-First-Love 

This link is very useful and informative only for those who ( girl / boy) still can not let go on their past relationship and may be also a good site for those who was in counseling / psychology line of career. Well let me share with you on my own experienced.

I do encountered with this so called "Broken Heart"  feeling and seriously i tell you IT IS DAMN HURT like the ground is not where you belongs and everything surrounds you is HELL. Your LOGIC are out and Your DESIRE to DIE are strong. WEAK, ANGER, PAIN, TEARS,LONELY will become your very best friend on that moments. Everything you do is not right and you prefer to lay on your bed with your pillows on your face Crying ... crying ... and crying and Sometimes You just want to go for some hidden places to SCREAM and SCREAM like no one care for you. Foods in front of you, you tend to imagine on His Damn Smiling Face and you have no appetite on touching it. Every minutes pass is so damn long to you and your mind can't keep on thinking of HIM, Missing Him and everything is HIM HIM and HIM and wanted your relationship with him to be BACK. Obviously, your body will slowly and slowly loss on weight. Such situation will last long until you recover ... say may be months or more worse years ...  (This is so true) ... What more for the FIRST LOVE. (~#~). AGAIN??? [I am imagining on my past Relationship]

Okay Okay!! Stop the CRAPs ... Wow ... wow ... wow ... come on guys don't be so emotional. For All the brokenhearted readers ... don't frown!! OWH ... This is NOT how the Stories ended .... You See the truth is ~~~>>

           [ No one, No body, not a single one of us will RUN from this natural Feeling.]

I mean whats the point on Hurting your self for something stupid. Just admit it that all human kind will ALL end up facing the same ISSUES. its normal in life. IF there is no BROKEN HEART so we will never learn and experienced the HURT itself. Take it into consideration before you wasting your pearl tears on SOMEONE.

People ... i know it hard to LET GO but believe me ... When you PRAY harder and BELIEVE GOD is there to hear you. You will heal. You will not forget but you will Accept the fact that ITS OVER. Of course the MEMORIES still there ... just keep that memories as your JOURNEY on EARTH.

I never exactly  know how I managed to ACCEPT the reality that "HE IS NOT MINE" anymore but i do believe on PRAYER. Make sure when you pray ... pray for The person (Your ex) happiness in life and with time you will let go for there must be reasons why He is not Yours. CORRECT?

Chill Up.... Be positive ... and if you still can't assure yourself on what to do to get over your ex/1st love than the link i show earlier will somehow help you.

~Me@~

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Did i mention about the "Responsibility" that were given to me on my last post? OoO ... Hello!!! About the Engagement Banner? (striking both hands up to chest) well frankly saying ... i am not the one who originally own the design but then, most of the idea ... i mean on the wordings, the fonst, the graphic ... most of them comes from my own feelings. hihi. (@_@) at least i do help in term of comments and suggestion!! . And the rest of the editing via Mic. Photoshop, i leave it to my friend friend's. hehe And thanks to Erry (the one who will bring this to the printer & also the editor)  for the Half finished Banner ... my BFF Alice loved it so much. 

Well let me show you the process till to the final decision ...

What do you think? If any of you reader doen't say OKAY to this then "something Wrong" with you. hahaha.

This was the half finished banner that i am talking about & when it comes to Alice bare eyes, she said "Yes!! i love it Mea ... make it to the printer" .. Owh i was like "uhh!! emm!! okay!!" 

Without Alice knowledge, i actually comments on the title fonts and the Name side. ( Responsibilities are on me so she have no right to know what this and that ... am i right? ). I don't think the tittle fonts suit my expectation ... the font should be more ... like curvy or more interesting ... or may be the size need to be more bigger or whatever ... but i suggest to him (my friend friend's that font types need to be change to a more clear one & also the couple names need to be more big. Everything needs to be resize and i didn't comment much on the background design coz this design look far far more better than the last one ....

Here ... i show you the old Banner Design .....

"Two Heart's, One Love" was the origin theme that i select but when the design being sent to me, i was like " something is wrong !" then i google around for "engagement party banner" images and all stuff about banner ... sky blue banner and so on. Then the words "All About When Two people Fell In Love" ... those words was so sweet and i slowly repeat it again and again. I was amaze by those romantic sweet words. Without any doubt i said ... "this is what i am looking for" ... look again to the half finish banner ... You will felt the same way ... MAYBE!!

Owh about this design, Neither Alice nor i like it. The design is not live ... i mean it was like those fairytales and fantacies story. well what??? we are living in reality and we are the real Human being not cartoon. 

And for Alice, she doesn't quite comfortable with the RING images at the end of the banner ... she said it was like "not matured' some sort of ideas. hihi .... Cool down...this is only pre-design banner ... we still can do adjustments and changes to it. (@_@). Some more, she asked for correction on the couple name's. She said normally Man name come 1st than women and its true somehow. hihi. Yes Boss ... changes will be done later.

What i do was ... i googled for some blue background images and let Alice do the selection. Then when i get the answers from her, i told Erry to change everything including the ring image and the banner itself. 

My wrong in the 1st place, because i am not familliar with the banner size so i gave Erry the wrong size (2 x 5 = bunting size). I supposed to ask for (5 x 2 = Banner size). But no worries ... now i knows and the result .....

browse back to the half finished design ... that was the result after this and that ... ( Erry was good in meeting my expectation) hihi. Like i said earlier ... the final banner, the one which will be printed is still "Question Mark ?????" but i hope everything will be okay. 

~Me@~

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My Bff, Alice is getting engage next Saturday but why is that we (other Badulz) the one who getting so excited? Weird Isn't it? For this matter, I am responsible for their Banner making and also for Her (BFF Alice) engagement make up. I don't know how did i drag myself into their plan but Yeah!! here i am ... being given the trust on designing and preparing their Banner. LOLx. I really hope she will like those banner later.

CONGRATULATION MY DEAR .....

Last week, the three of us (Badulz) went for a clothes shopping for Alice engagement dress. We went in and out to few shop before we finally came to the right clothes shop. Pity to Alice for having so much trouble trying each dresses that we choose. Until Finally, when she exhausted and tired on keep put on and out every clothes, she made a plain decision. She had choosen Sky blue color dress. We love the colour too. And because she had a small figure, she looks exactly the same as a barbie Doll. Owh How adorable she was.

Meanwhile, Lydia had been succeeded in persuade Alice and i to spent  money on some new make up. Each of us spent about RM100 for a stick of Mascara, Eye liner, Face Powder and Blusher. What a waste of money but still it worth a lot. Owh forget to mention about the product brand...its "Kiss Beauty" ... the make up brand names. I had used it for a week and i liked it. I'll for sure will let my younger sister knows about this Product. hihi.

A day Out with BFF was Fun.

-mE@-

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In this life, What Did You Miss? The wife asked the Husband when she was 25. Despondently, the husband replied: I Missed A New Job Opportunity. When she was 35, the husband angrily told her that he had just missed the bus. At 45, the husband sadly said: I missed the opportunity seeing my closed relative before his last breath. At 55, the husband said disappointingly: i missed a good chance to retire. At 65, the husband hurriedly replied: i missed a dental appointment. 

At 75, the wife did not ask the husband anymore, the husband was kneeling in front of the very sick wife. remembering the question the wife used to ask him. this time he asked the wife the same question. the wife, with a smile and peaceful look, replied: IN THIS LIFE,I DID NOT MISS HAVING YOU! The husband was full of tears. he always thought that they could be together forever. he was always busy with work and trifles so much so he had never been thoughtful to his wife. The husband hugged the wife tightly and said: "over 50 years, how i had allowed myself to miss your deep love for me."

In the busy city life, there are many people who are always busy with work. these people revolve their lives around their jobs. these people sacrifice all their times and health to meet the social expectations. they are unwilling to spend times on health care. they miss the opportunity to be with their children in their growing up. they neglect the love ones who care for them, and also their health. Nobody knows what is going to happen one year from now.

LIFE IS NOT PERMANENT, SO ALWAYS LIVE IN THE "NOW". EXPRESS YOUR GRATITUDE TO YOUR LOVED ONES IN WORDS. SHOW YOUR CARE WITH ACTIONS. TREAT EVERYDAY AS THE LAST EPISODE OF LIFE. IN THIS WAY, WHEN YOU ARE GONE, YOU LOVED ONES WOULD HAVE NOTHING TO FEEL SORRY ABOUT.

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while sitting on my own office chair, i was wondering what is the most suitable career that i suppose to be in? starting to wondered about it, i ask my own self in what aspect do i excel the most? NONE!! regardless of my "now" living like, i prefer a fun, enjoy and less stress line of life. Imagining a life full of adventurous activities and learning others languages - which is Korean and having a life without worried much about Mr Money.

My eagerness in learning new thing makes me feel uncomfortable with my "now" situation / condition. Talking about Business ... YES i am open to any opportunity but instead my knowledge on that line is less than what i excerpted. Taking care of the workers, having to trust others and ect ... i realized my management skills and leadership skill are low.

( what on earth i am talking about???? No idea!!) i guess what i needed the most is a motivator and someone to support me from behind. I WANNA OUT FROM THE MESS I HAD DONE!!

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Have you ever been in a situation where for example felt uncertain and unable to make any wise decision in a whole day or in the whole week? Is it normal for such thing to happen? Because i personally do encountered with it sometime. I wondered if there is a good explanation for it.

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Yesterday evening, after my Intensive English Class with Mdm. Doreen, I invited Olga, my classmate to have dinner together. After considering what food to eat and which restaurant to go, at last we came up with a good solutions that was "dinner with grilled fish". That was a nice ideas for i wanted to eat such food since the day before. It makes my night feels good.

Olga, in the other hand do not know how to chose what fish to eat so i offered myself delightedly pointing my finger to one big "Kerapuh" fish and two small "Jurassic" fish. Enough for the two of us i guess. Hahax!! When we finally finished our dishes, we realized that Not even a word comes out from the beginning until the end of the eating process. This situation makes both us laugh and grin. (*_*). We really do enjoy the eating moment huh!! About the fish? it cost us RM30 and we paid it equally.

Later after, we finally say goodbye and good night to each other.

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After two weeks of non stop Outstation and working, i purposely taking my leave today. Moreover its Monday and i kind of lazy to craw down from my single bed. Hahaha!!!! Knowing also that today i have to settle down my every undone personal matters. I spend my half day watching unfinished Korean Movie and only taking my shower at Noon. I though it will be fine for me to settle everything at noon but unfortunately the sun still bursting with His anger till evening. It is not that i hate the sun, i just don't connect good with the heat. 

After taking my lunch at 2pm with two of my sister's, i rushing here and there till i finished my own thing. in the evening.  Knowing that we had nothing to do later then, i suggested to my sister's to hang out and having an evening walked at the sea coast. Well, it was a good suggestion i guess as long as its cost nothing. i parked the car far so we could walk slowly to the coast and waiting for the sunset. 

The sunset was fantastically beautiful. i did shot some for my own collection but yeah .. you know i am not a good photographer but i love taking picture. Here are some of the Sunset view that i took. It might not look good because my Sony digital camera is an old fashion camera and believe me it is the best sunset ever for real.

Here it go. I manage to upload only these two picture here for i think these are the best of all those shot i made. Oppss!! i am zero in editing so this picture are original without editing process. 

How do you see it? OoO i am not asking you to comment on the way how a photographer should work ... just that i want to know if it is beautiful or not? i mean the sunset of course. hihi.

Well, i hope you (reader) find it beutiful and inspired enough. doen't matter about on whether i shot nice space and dimension .. as long as you find it beautiful .... that's count. (Sound a little selfishness) huhu

Untill then .... Good Night.

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Febuary for some people are "loveable" or "exciting" month because Valentine day fall on this month every year. How was you out there enjoy the day and the month? My imagination come like this ~~~~>>Walking hand to hand in the evening at the beach, sharing their love witness by the dawn and listening to the sea air blowing through their every step or having a romantic dinner in a fine and nice restaurant with a candlelight in the middle of the table and drinking and old age wine? Emmm It all about ROMANTIC and LOVE isn't it? Lucky for those new wed couple (like two of my friend) ... they sure enjoy this Febuary as a Honeymoon month. LOL. Owh!! not to forget my ex-BF ... Happy belated Valentine day to him and his new GirlFriend. (~Sincere wish~). And for my future BoyFriend .. Happy Valentine Day !!! Hahahahhah.

As for myself, My Febuary is not as romantic as what had some of you feel. I am stuck with my busy Febuary with my office task, all those tiring Outstation and a week of Personal Financial courses. What a tiring Month for me huh!! Also i had made up my mind entering a part time Intensive English Course at KCC starting from this Month (Febuary) till middle of April.

Even though i miss my Romantic moment for my own self but yet i truly grateful for i learned lot more new thing this Month. With my business and tiring days ... i meet more new acquaintance and new purposed in life. Thanks To FEBRUARY for everything.

Yet, I spent my Valentine Alone this year.

~m3@~

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