Today, Life's a bit busy .. busy with work, busy with thought, busy with friend, shortly ... today is a busy day. Most of my staff gone to outstation for a week and some were taking their leave while i am taking over their task. What a mess of business but still it makes me feel good because my time wasted with a meaningful new exposure and experience.

Luckily, stress does not conquer me and all my task finished with fulfillment and satisfaction. (^_^)

I AM HAPPY!! yeah!!

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There are a lot of benefits working with the government .... one of it was A fix amount of salary and fix date of salary day. Today just happened to be Salary day for government workers. I am not excluded from today excitement . (^_^)

When talking about salary day ... sure Mr.($_$) is always in our mind. Fix $$ means we need to budget every single cent for spending and saving. Every month we tend to spend exceeding our salary which mean in a simple words we spend more than what we get. This is what people always do ... I am doing the same. haha

Believe me no one in this world is clean from debt. RMXXXX.XX is credited to our bank account but after being deduct to the debt ... RMXXXX.XX became RmXXX ( whats more for spending on our daily expenses?). It is easy for us to budget our $$ in papers but to put it into action, needs some discipline and commitment.

As for me, I am trying hard to save at least 10% from my salary to ASB (which i believe gives a high returns in the future). 5% provided for paying Insurance and the balanced for others expenses such as paying personal Loan, Cars, and others utilities. So ... my point is, whats the use of this fix salary if we could not put a side a little for our future sake? I should remind you and myself as well to not to forget the "SAVING" word.

Do you think RMxxxx.xx that we (government workers) get every month is enough..?? The answered is NEVER ENOUGH. Whatever amount Our salary is, if we fail to stick to what have we budgets, it will never enough for our living.

Remember to save 10% out of our salary for the future...(^_^) Happy salary day!!

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Few and far between i am complaining about things that i hate. But today i just did. To be exact, i am about to express my "un-satisfaction" to this blog since yesterday but my internet doesn't allows me to do so.

just yesterday, i am represent my department attaining "Kaamatan" at Dewan Arkib, Keningau and looking for a parking Lot But what i saw was ... there are no parking available and police in charge in arranging parking lot for VIP. Then with a polite and manner, i am asking help for one parking Lot.

"I don't know, but here is only for VIP's reserved" ... that was the answered given by the police. I am stuck ... and almost having a fight with him (police). if only cars from my back keep honing, sure there will be a fight on that moment. Doesn't they prepared enough Parking space for "Less Important" but "still Important" person ( at least i came because being asked and invite to represents my Department) for such events..??

Who does he meant by VIP anyway? Why there should be an invitation to any department for any event if they Does not refer them as a VIP too..?? I mean what the used of that invitation..?? do you think i would come to such crowd if it was not for the sake of My department..?? Think about it?

eventually i found out one parking lot not too far from the "Dewan Arkib" and needs to walked with my high hills crossing the road. You see this makes my day down and i decided to join that event only half day. My mood fade and my focus out. I rather stay at home doing my things than wasting my time with such rude and out of satisfaction situation.

Then this morning, One of the public comes to me and asking my favour for A certified true signature for her Identity card and birth certificate. this does not bother me because that was a part of my duty too but the way she asked me makes me want to dump all her documents to the dustbin.

"mau buat pengesahan yang ini ar Moi" ... the words "moi" is not suit to be spoke at any government department. We as a government workers never allowed to used those impolite words to public but why public can do so..?? After finished signing her documents, i said "next time if u r happened to deal with any department, watch ur words, nvr used the "amoi" word as to refer anyone".

In my opinion, be it at any department, organization or in daily lives, i prefer not to use the "amoi" word to refer someone or somebody (whats more if v are not friend) . doesn't matter if i happened to be in a restaurant or coffee shop. Everyone have a name and better refer a person directly to their name and not "Amoi" or "mandak".

People here needs to change. this is only my opinion.

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Guess what i successfully making a decision accompanying this old Friend of mine going back "Kampung". Seriously, i never plan on this before but as usual Flexible in life sometimes rewards a great opportunity and experience...do u agree with me?

Most of the time, we tend to stick for one Plan without any others alternative right!! this happened to the old me but then when we old enough (matured) to think, we can decide whether or not the things we are doing is good or not. (agree again don't you?) ... its up to you to make a decision anyway. haha.

Here am i now at Kampung Magatang having a funky Friday night and waiting for a Wonderful fun and enjoyable Saturday morning tomorrow. hehe

well, guess thats all for now. Just letting u guys knows that i am flexible in doing anything to my life .... same goes to you out there ....learn to be a little more flexible worth you a lot.

....Flexible is my Priority in lives ....

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Friendship is another word that describe how lovely we are as human being. But when comes to what types of friends suited to yourself, we absolutely will looking for a few criteria. (doesn't mean we being choosy in selecting friend) As for me, it is a difficult thing to make friend and i choose only those who really "having the same mind set" friends. I remember when i was in high school, i have one very close and best friend of mine. ) Of course i learned a lot about life from her but our friendship turns to upside down when times goes by and we both growing matured. (Thanks to her for once being my close @ best buddy).... l ̲̅ə̲̅٨̲̅٥̲̅٦̲̅]

Things changed when i entered Pre-University life (Form 6). My perseption of friendship differ now and here i meet a lot of new friends...(well entering new school is cool and challenging). although she (my x-BFF)was also entering the same school but our friendship relationship seems like "stuck" & "die" ... was it cause by the environment or changing in attitude? i never know.

(◡‿◡✿) ... aside from making a new friend, i meet a guys (real handsome and charming) who shows me what is "LOVE" relationship for the 1st time. You see ... Pre-U two years time really means something to me. Hahaha. Owh I forget to mention about who and what types was my New Best buddies here.

At 1st, i have nobody since i exchange my class from literature class to Economic class. Beside not knowing anything about my new subject, i knew no body in specific too. how am i going to survive this term..??

Luckily i found out a group of best friend (3 people - Pet,Lyde & alice) that also looking for a members to their group on that time... so without hesitated, i official joined their group and we became best buddies since then.

How do we managed to survive Our Friendship..??

Will catch with u later....

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Dear blog, Today 17th Mei 2011 fall on public Holiday, that is for giving space to Indian people celebrating Wesak day....coincidentally, today is also one of an important date for me to remember since 8 years backward...and how come i can easily vanished today on my diaries each year?? I mean i used to highlight each 17th Mei each years since 2004....its a habit and i am doing it on purpose ... so that i will never neglect today from my set of thinking/mind haha....and lucky for my ex Boyfriend ... yeah!! He should be pround to have an Ex”esss that still obssess to remember his birthday. And Guys .... do you think he is lucky or i am a fool for doing so..??

What a mess in me...u know i had been preparing a birthday card (done it with my own creativity) in hope that i can hand it to him by today but what i get now is just a grief and dismay..?? i don’t know but i am eager to hand him that birthday card over but scared and afraid of rejection inside me preventing me from doing so. I eventually ending up keeping this card as one of my collection and memory. (I am a Fool Again...don’t you agree??) At the same time, my heart and my mind couldn’t keep Him out from my thinking since 2 days ago...decided whether to send him a great birthday wish via SMS but a part of me saying that “are u insane...do u want him to think that u r chasing him..?? wouldn't u mind if he called u a fool..?? this is my clear side of so called “PRIDE@EGO” that preventing me from doing so..?? i don’t know. But then, you want to know the story...?? i ended up to keep on struggling to be the last person to wish him. (i am not sure if i m the last but i remember sending him the birthday text at 21:00pm) another fool story again right .... But Isn’t it good enough for me to do so than stand for my first option to just text him tomorrow for a belated wish and pretending that i am totally forget about his birthday? I am dying for doing so u know.

Owh Gosh!! What a bewildered day for me today. Thanks to the “little” part of me that pushing me not to be so “EGO” this time. I hope he is happy and full of smile when receiving my text. One thing makes me wonder and keep wondering....”AM I STILL IN LOVE WITH HIM..??” owh GOD...Help me.

This is the detail of the text i send and i receive back ...

A: Hi...u r step-in another stair this year ...i wanna wish u Happy Birthday 27th. Keep Smiling, keep Moving, Keep fighting and owez keep In touch. Happy Birthday Henry ... (Hope i m d last person to wish u this) hehehe...Mea.

B:Hi there dear friend Mea. I thank you for that wish. I appreciate it very much. I wish u all the best of lucks in whatever u do in your life. Hey don;t give up mea (^_^).

A: I won’t and nvr will give up that easily since i m a bleesed child and a strong woman. Hahaha.dun worry. U too Keep Fighting in life and nvr give up. Cheers to you. Yay!!

B:: ..... I(no more replies...)

I hate it when i became weak by a simple and clear msg like that. I can't stop from letting my heart ache and my eyes dropping a tears and keep saying “keep moving mea .... he is nothing, he is just an old friend of yours” ... (only to persuade myself to not thinking much on him). This gonna be the last text i m sending him this year. (^_^) I need to be strong and cheers for still having GOD to take care of me and to LOVE me tenderly. Still.......
*******HAPPY BIRTHDAY HENRY*******

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hey Blog , Feel like really want to write something on you but the the idea of "what to write" seem doesn't flow in at this moment. I wonder why others blogger can easily put down their views or ideas so confidently and smoothly.?? (^~^). This makes me feel irritated by my own brain. (And of course envy to the others blogger)! well to start my story, i was about to blame my work and the office. haha!! I am stuck in the office whole day and lack of focus in everything that i do. Always i was wondering if i could do better in my career and my life ... I bet people will think "u r lucky mea ... working with the government and getting a fix salary month without worry .. what else do you want..??" Let me tell you Blog, that i appreciated it for become one of the government "coolie" and free from financial worried but there is something that still "here" that i could have done to satisfied myself. "what was it.>?/" am totally have no idea. When comes to friends,,, No!! i have a lot of friend to be with but this is not the problem i am facing.Family..?? emmm!! may be but not a major question till i can't handle it well. So what was it?? if only i can answered you on the spot then its no use to write on you right!! there are so many "things" in my mind that i haven't achieve yet!! and this so called "things" is inexplicable and abstract. I need to act fast ... avoid procrastination and postponement. I am sorry Blog to let my feeling and emotion cross you and the word "WAKE UP MeA" is the most finest thing for me to throw all this unknown feeling just now. .....WAKE UP MEA!!.... ***************************************************Ciao!!........

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UKB's Activities to Pulau Tanjung Paras on 27 April 2011. The island is not far from Lahad Datu City ... only taken about 20 minits of your time to cross the ocean (if i am not mistaken). People there lives their life based on sea source. They build their houses on the sea. I guess people here ate a lot of seafood. (Fish, Shrimp, crabs, shellfish etc ...) What so funny about this Island was ... Their toilets. you better think twice whether or not to used their toilet ... for me, i will stand on my urination and bowel movement as long as i can than using their facilities here. Just imagine ... everything we thrown ... ended up to the sea, and so does if we were about using their toilet.LOL.(thats a funny part) and i could not imagine how they can tolerate their daily lives that way ... just assumed they "used to it" these lifestyle already. LOL!! This Video is just a part of UKB's Journey where we at UKB's need to be healthy ... both physically and mentally so that we can brings up Positives issues not only to Our Department but also to our individual self. Till then and enjoy the short video ...

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