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Time's Up ~ I think i need a boyfriend !!
Posted by Mea L. Antaim
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Friday, April 24, 2015
Time's up ~ I think i need a boyfriend !!
Conversation between My soul and I...
Me : "Soul, i think i am open for a new relationship now..."
Soul : "Seriously Mea?"
Me : "Yes Soul, time's up!! I need a Boyfriend ... i mean "WE" "
Me : " I know ... sounds crazy right!! I am sorry soul, we need to be together in this. You need a soul mate and I need a man"
Soul : Lets move on it!!
Me : yeah!! I am on it!!
***********************I need a Boyfriend**************************
Well, Its been quite a while since i broke up with my so called "First Love". Seriously i am wasting my time sticking on my "loyalty" and my "believe" about him returning back and imagining "us" to start over again. I am being such a "maniac" towards my own self. Either Overly influenced by "Happy Ending" Movies or just being too strictly bonded with my "Life Principle" ... or worse... What am i ? a coward? a pathetic little Mea? ~ Pheeww tsk tsk tsk!!!
I remember i once said to him (ex-es) that i still can live without a man!! Owh yes ... i am a very independent and stubborn lady. But the reality was sucks!! I might be can do things whats man are capable of but the fact about the difference between Man & Woman still hold the strong facts which i admitted and realized of ... "I still need Man in my life!!" ~ I regretted to have had said it!!
Its normal though to be in a "Cynics" situations when you are not open up for others opportunity or chances into a new relationship after experiencing a bad/terrible "broken-heart" relationship. In my case, it really hits me deeply to the core and affected my whole person as a women ~ Rejection is the most "sickening" / " Extremely unpleasant" feelings that can cause an unwanted emotional instability.
The question now is ... " am i really ready / open for a new relationship"? ~ which i am still uncertain about until now because i haven't really meet someone that really bring the "spark" out as what i expected of ... Am i able to fall in love again? I am not sure!! or am i easily fall in love to people but hindered by the image of "Rejection" and "hurt"? I am not sure either!! ~ I just need someone that able to respect me as a women and can sacrifice himself for me!!
1 Universe, 9 planets, 204 countries, 809 islands, 7 seas : ~ can't believe i unable to find one that "good" for me!!
1 Universe, 9 planets, 204 countries, 809 islands, 7 seas : ~ can't believe i unable to find one that "good" for me!!
# Real Life Sharing ~ What i need is a Non-smoking - Caring, authentic, honest Boyfriend!!
~M3@~
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