While we are enjoying our food at the table, talking, laughing, hanging around, chilling out with friends , gossiping or even complaining and doesn't bother about anything else around us ... remember there are those unfortunate people that struggling for food, for money and struggling their life's for a living. 

i was called to share about these unfortunate people around us that sometimes we overlooked and not treated equally in the society. I was on my way to withdraw money at one of the nearby ATM bank in my way back home from church. I have nothing with me and i need an emergency cash at the moment. At the entrance of the bank door, there are this disable middle age man waiting at a corner not far from the bank main entrance. If you know Nick Vujicic, you can imagine the man that i am describing to you by now, only that this Man have two short arms without fingers. 

While pushing on the entrance door, i give a slight glance at him, hate to know that he is making a living by gaining from people sympathy. He can be doing something more respectful or more dignity at. - but deep inside me having this pity feelings towards him. I am confused a while when part of me dislike on what the man is doing, gaining people sympathy at the bank entrance yet part of me showing some respect for him and accepting that every work is a work. ~begging is also a profession~ 

I try to put myself in his shoes. If i am - him ... What will i do for a living? Am i brave enough to wait at any bank entrance and asking for money? - I let myself see things in a more positive way- in a sense of gratefulness ... I am fortunate enough to have a perfect whole body where i can freely use my leg to walk, kick and jump and also to have my two arms with fingers to do my daily routine. Telling my self that i am fortunate enough as a person compare to him, being born with physical incapability. 

I come near to him and start asking him question like, where he lives, who help him out, and other simple questions that showing compassion to him. Deep inside me i want them to know that they are matters in this world and begging is not the correct way to make a living. 

So new thing i learn;

~When i saw him, waiting at the front of the bank entrance with physical incapability~  

*I learnt that unfortunate people teach us about how to be grateful and stop complaining*

P/S: Encourage one another ~we are all equal~

~m3@~

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We all have our own way of life fulfillment ... We might be sharing the same desire in life but different way of experiencing it. Note that each one of us are special and unique in our own way. What make us different is our attitude and the values that we hold onto towards life. - Life values is another interesting things that can be probe and discuss later - but for the this entry let me continues about what i left on my last Life Fulfillent ~ Part 1 sharing.

Quoted back from my last post :-
P/s : To be continued with:-
* Thinking ( doing statistic)
* Travelling
* Motivating
* Having Variety in Life
* Personal growth

Thinking 

I love learning about critical thinking but i never really applied the teaching into the real life yet or i might have been applying it without aware about it. Is it possible? - May be - When i attended this Social Teaching short talk from Sister Margerate at church, i learned that thinking not only involves our head/mind but also involves our heart. Logical thinking: we are usually using our brain for a logical answers to a problem. Thinking with heart : usually applied when we were reflecting about our self. Many articles can be found regarding Mind thinking Vs Heart thinking & heart - mind thinking. Its interesting to know the way how we think because the way how we think actually play the biggest roles in our daily life. 

I am not a good thinker but i love statistic very much. I love to study and think of the possibilities or logical probability based on statistic. Figures is powerful in the way of proving something and i am good at it. Good : fairly good but not too excellent on it. I am not a fast thinker i admitted it since i always will look into the details and start asking why? how if? how come? - not very applicable for a quick decision making - since i like seeking other people opinions on something before processing it into my own thinking. Sometimes laziness is the main reason that limits the brain ability of thinking In fact, the real truth is our brain have a great ability if we know how to use it and practice a good way of thinking ... 

Thinking too much leads to life distraction and emotion instability ... Reflection is needed in our daily life to help our self to understand our self better because only from understanding our self we are able to extended the joy and compassion to other people around us. I am learning to do Daily life reflection now and writing a life reflection story & learn the strong reason to do reflection as a way for self improvement.

I admire people who can think in a critical way and able to forecast the future by doing analysis and thinking. We all are a thinker ... we are using our mind to think and to evaluate in making daily decision. The most important things about thinking is ... POSITIVENESS ... Be Positive to everything because through positive thinking we will find happiness that leads to life's fulfillment.

"Positive thinking can achieve the impossible - Vijay-"

"Thinking positively can change your whole perspective on life" 

"The mind is everything.What you Think You Become - Buddha-"

Travelling

Talking about travelling ... its everyone dreams!! yeah believe me almost half of the population in the world wish to travel around the globe.  I had been having this dream since my University day. I shared my dream with Him (Ex-BF) ~and of course its a "Sweet couples" dream~ to do travelling together in the future  (What a memory!!). We   ( My Boyfriend & I) never ever mention about getting married or having children together but we have this talk about "Travelling". What funny about it was the vision of  possibilities in the dream itself. Well, as a young couples every dream is a possibility isn't it? We agreed to travel from one starting point, different direction ( different countries) and ended up in one agreed country that both wants to travel together. - What a dream!! - Now that i had grown up and rethink about all those possibilities ... i realized one thing .. Travelling needs Money!! hahaha. But what a life without a dream right??

Look at the world map ... do you know how many countries are there in the world? check it out Here!! Travel doesn't always require you to look outside your own country, Domestic travel also considered as travelling. Travelling is like a book and those who do not travel read only one page. ~ St. Agustine~ What's important about travelling is Click Here and how it can transform our life. Normally people who used to travel is an Open Minded person where they learn about the value of Respect, Value of Life, Value of other people. Don't believe me? Try to be friend with those who travel often ... they see life in a different perspective!

Even with domestic travelling is good enough for you to see the other side of the country to at least Learn a new thing in Life!! I personally had travel around East Malaysia (Sabah & Sarawak) and few of West Malaysia (Peninsular). -meeting new friends- Get connection!! 

My first overseas Country that i visited is Philippines (Clark & Manila) with a group of church people that i never met before. Then I visited Brunei (visiting Fr. Paul, a priest that i met during that Philippines trip) and visited Australia ( Doing PRH Courses suggested by Fr. paul) - can you see how everything is connecting to one another?). It is the same with domestic travelling where you meet new people that can lead you to a new dimension of how we see life's. I also visited Vietnam Twice last year and wish to do some travelling again soon!!

Like i said Money is the biggest concern when comes to travelling. We always can get information from the tip of our finger isn't it? Here is how to save money tips for travelling, another Blog on saving money tips - this is an interesting blog on how she manage to travel around the world and even quit her job .. a must read blog -. When you do more and more research on how some people who able to travel the world does, most of them do one Thing in life ... SAVING MONEY!! i am learning on it too since it requires self discipline and strategies as well. There are more tips on how to be able to do travelling ... just force your little butt to sit and do research on Google!! -everything about travelling & save while travelling & Adventure in Travelling- Site / blog like this really help you to know more things about travelling. Another Site that might rise up your enthusiasm of traveling is travel Europs for less than 6k.

My 2015 travel plan

Mei - Cambodia & Melbourne & Goal Coast, Australia

June - Phuket & Krabi, Thailand

Sept - Melbourne,Australia (Doing PRH)

Nov - Shenzhen - Shanghai - Beijing

Dec - Land below the wind (My Home Town)

** We plan God Fulfill** When a plan doesn't went well as planned, Be happy because there is always a reason for everything that happens!!**

"I just wanna go on ore adventures. Be around good energy. Connect with people. Learn New things. Grow. -Thekoolhaus-"

"Travel is the only thing you buy that makes you richer"

"Travel: Explore/Embrace/Learn/Live"

P/s: Wow couldn't believe i share more about travelling. 

P/s: Will continue about
* Motivating
* Having Variety in Life
* Personal growth ...............................................................................SOON.......

Till Then!!

~m3@~

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13 March 2015

When I grow older i found out that it is some how easier for me to know what i love doing and what was the things that when i do it, able to make me happy and feeling satisfied with a great fulfillment in life.

Here's the list of things that i wanted to do and have fulfillment in life:-
* Reading
* Writing
* Thinking ( doing statistic)
* Travelling
* Motivating
* Having Variety in Life
* Personal growth

Reading 

I can barely recalled how did i fall to the habit of reading. But i remember reading Malay novel when i was in secondary school and i love visiting the library ( Even can spent the whole day in the Library - Reading- ). I change my reading preferences from Malay Novel to English novel when i realized that there were not much different in Malay Novel story walk through from one novel to another - sometimes i can correctly guess the ending of the story as well-  So i decided to tried reading an English story book even though i am not good in English. (* There is a story behind on how i realized the fact that English is a very interesting and abstract languages to learn - might write about it in my next entry-)

Mary Kate & Ashley Story books became my favorite story books during my secondary school. I love reading about their life stories as a twin. Even though they were twin sister's but they have different personality. They even cheated at their identity ( changed identity ) in schools. This was the most amazing story books that i found suit my younger age interest. 

I cultivated my reading interest and reading desire while i was in my second University year. I had a boyfriend back then - he loves reading and writing as well. He was excellent in English and i somehow motivated by him - indirectly - . During our University time, we loves spending our time in the library. he will be doing his Law assignment and i will be doing my revision as well. Most of our free time, we will be spending it in the library. I remember a day when i feel boring waiting for him to finish his work, i simply grabbed a red color thick story book entitle - The diary - . The book was about the real life's story of the writer (which i forgot the name). I love the book very much. I read it far from his study table because i don't want to be disturbed. That was a great book so far and i ended up lending the book and finished reading it in two days time. 

After my experience with that book, i started looking for other interesting story book and read it while waiting for my boyfriend every time we spent time together in the library. I finished reading my second English novel entitle - The Princes Diaries - for a whole day morning until evening in the library. I also started to talk about what i had read ... telling the story to my boyfriend until one day he asked " What is the movie title?" and i answered him "I didn't watch movie, i read the book". Its amazing how i can retold the book summary as if i am watching a movie. That was a happy moment for me and i continued reading until now. 

I wouldn't even mind spending my money on books. Up to now i had bunch of English motivational book - Robert Kiyosaki on financial - John C. Maxwell on Leadership - Oprah Winfrey on life's experiences and more. I also keen to romance story book as well. I felt that reading really make my brains processing, thinking and learning...i also can practice my imagination and at time become emotional when reading as if i am the Heroin of the story.  

Writing / Blogging

Writing: To share anything in words ... 

I never really do perfect writing, keeping a journal or keeping a diary during the period of my growing age. I don't even know exactly what to write and how to write. all the while I had been thinking that writing is hard especially when it comes to giving out personal opinion. I really hate writing before because it needs my concentration and i am scared of making mistake. That feeling of afraid of making mistake is actually killing my creativity in expressing out my opinion and finally lead to low self confident. But i tell you what i always want to share things through writing but unfortunately i just lack of the resources on how to write and what to write. I usually feel dissatisfied with  my own writing  and that dissatisfaction (negativity) is just silence down my desire of writing. 

I started to have the confident in writing from my ex-boyfriend. Well he is a thinker ( at least that what i think he was ) and he loves expressing things or matters in a piece of papers. He even can Write from one pages to another pages and more pages.  I love to read his articles and the way how he really brings out things and discuss them in writing. I wonder how did he manage to write so freely and openly? Then i realized that writing is not about following any rules like what being taught in schools. Writing is to let go of what you feel and what you think in your own perfect words and with your own perfect way. Everyone have the ability to write since everyone have the ability to think and to speaks. The only matter that arises is the willingness to write or not to write. 

I had been starting having this blog in 2009 and its been 5 years since i practice my writing. Amazing enough that i am improving each year. Improving in term of vocabulary and confident level... i can freely write whatever i want now. The process of learning takes time .. keep on going because every successful person begins with mistake and failure. 

I am inspired by Muhamad Hafiz bin Ismail Life through my eyes blog. I was walking front and fort in a bookstore when i spotted his book Life through my eyes 2 with 214 pages. He inspired others from his blog pages and even able to published his blog into a book. Without hesitation i bought his book the same day and both his book and blog become my references and inspiration in doing more blogging and writings. 

For those who have the desire of writing... follow your heart and instinct. WRITE!! do Blogging!! share something because no one else see the world the way you do and no one else tells the story that you have to tell ... start writing. I admitted that there are more room of improvement for me in writing especially with my grammar but doesn't matter...There are always an editor behind a great article!! And here 15 reasons why you should start blogging and i agreed with the writer!!

P/s : To be continued with:-
* Thinking ( doing statistic)
* Travelling
* Motivating
* Having Variety in Life
* Personal growth
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Till my next entry !!

~m3@~

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I am frantically having a hectic and restless week days - am I being a very responsible person or am I not knowing of how to manage my life to be more organize?- I am tired. I need a long rest. My body need relaxation. My body need treatment. My body need to just stop doing things that lead to anxiety and tiredness. My whole body need a full body massage!! that's what I really want right now at this moment. I need to make my mind to stop thinking about life .. just for a little while .. I need to focus on what good for my body and how to be a very best friend to my own body.

My normal weekday routine was this :-

Wake up in the morning -  Check on the Smart Phone - replying watt Sapp - browsing through Facebook - updating things - preparing myself for work - driving for work - breakfast with the same person - solving office problems ( sometimes do not even know what to do in the office ) - having office tight schedule - sitting long hours - stayed late in the office - (sometimes go for daily masses) - going back home - feeling Irritating with my housemate - staying in the room with computers and smart phone - preparing my sleep for the night - **

Additional for weekends :

 Waking up in the morning - go for catechism class - feeling happy with children at church - doing some church work - spending the evening, wasting time at home - go for evening masses at church - home and irritating with my housemate - locking myself in the room - preparing for the night and sleep.

OMG!! what is the problem with my daily routine? everything is perfect ... one thing that change my entire mood and effecting how my whole body reaction is my discomfort feeling with my housemate ... seriously? I need privacy and I am lack of privacy when he never know when to stop hanging around in the living room. I mean he is not the only person who live in the house!!  ( Note that I stayed in the house with a male friend a.k.a my housemate ) - he live downstairs and I live upstairs but we're sharing the bathroom, toilet and kitchen and owh.. the living room which I rarely spent time at. I prefer locking myself in the room doing my own things rather than doing things together with my housemate.

We been living in the same roof for almost 6 months now and we never really had a good conversation for the whole past months ... I don't like talking with him and I don't like sharing things with him. sometimes I felt that he is a "moron" and I dislike him very much. In fact I am still looking for a new place to rent. - Ridiculous isn't it?- But it is normal to not liking someone/ a person. I am merely human...

# Sometimes I don't know what I really want in life and how I really want to do with my day!!

for my own self motivation ....

" GET RID OF EVERYTHING THAT DOESN'T MAKE YOU HAPPY AND GIVE YOUR ATTENTION TO THE THINGS THAT DO"

P/S: I am thinking to do a self retreat and self reflection sometimes where I can spend my time alone and out from the life busyness.

P/s: Also I think going for a swim ( my favorite activities ) is what I really need for my body now.

~m3@~

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