We all have our own way of life fulfillment ... We might be sharing the same desire in life but different way of experiencing it. Note that each one of us are special and unique in our own way. What make us different is our attitude and the values that we hold onto towards life. - Life values is another interesting things that can be probe and discuss later - but for the this entry let me continues about what i left on my last Life Fulfillent ~ Part 1 sharing.

Quoted back from my last post :-
P/s : To be continued with:-
* Thinking ( doing statistic)
* Travelling
* Motivating
* Having Variety in Life
* Personal growth

Thinking 

I love learning about critical thinking but i never really applied the teaching into the real life yet or i might have been applying it without aware about it. Is it possible? - May be - When i attended this Social Teaching short talk from Sister Margerate at church, i learned that thinking not only involves our head/mind but also involves our heart. Logical thinking: we are usually using our brain for a logical answers to a problem. Thinking with heart : usually applied when we were reflecting about our self. Many articles can be found regarding Mind thinking Vs Heart thinking & heart - mind thinking. Its interesting to know the way how we think because the way how we think actually play the biggest roles in our daily life. 

I am not a good thinker but i love statistic very much. I love to study and think of the possibilities or logical probability based on statistic. Figures is powerful in the way of proving something and i am good at it. Good : fairly good but not too excellent on it. I am not a fast thinker i admitted it since i always will look into the details and start asking why? how if? how come? - not very applicable for a quick decision making - since i like seeking other people opinions on something before processing it into my own thinking. Sometimes laziness is the main reason that limits the brain ability of thinking In fact, the real truth is our brain have a great ability if we know how to use it and practice a good way of thinking ... 

Thinking too much leads to life distraction and emotion instability ... Reflection is needed in our daily life to help our self to understand our self better because only from understanding our self we are able to extended the joy and compassion to other people around us. I am learning to do Daily life reflection now and writing a life reflection story & learn the strong reason to do reflection as a way for self improvement.

I admire people who can think in a critical way and able to forecast the future by doing analysis and thinking. We all are a thinker ... we are using our mind to think and to evaluate in making daily decision. The most important things about thinking is ... POSITIVENESS ... Be Positive to everything because through positive thinking we will find happiness that leads to life's fulfillment.

"Positive thinking can achieve the impossible - Vijay-"

"Thinking positively can change your whole perspective on life" 

"The mind is everything.What you Think You Become - Buddha-"

Travelling

Talking about travelling ... its everyone dreams!! yeah believe me almost half of the population in the world wish to travel around the globe.  I had been having this dream since my University day. I shared my dream with Him (Ex-BF) ~and of course its a "Sweet couples" dream~ to do travelling together in the future  (What a memory!!). We   ( My Boyfriend & I) never ever mention about getting married or having children together but we have this talk about "Travelling". What funny about it was the vision of  possibilities in the dream itself. Well, as a young couples every dream is a possibility isn't it? We agreed to travel from one starting point, different direction ( different countries) and ended up in one agreed country that both wants to travel together. - What a dream!! - Now that i had grown up and rethink about all those possibilities ... i realized one thing .. Travelling needs Money!! hahaha. But what a life without a dream right??

Look at the world map ... do you know how many countries are there in the world? check it out Here!! Travel doesn't always require you to look outside your own country, Domestic travel also considered as travelling. Travelling is like a book and those who do not travel read only one page. ~ St. Agustine~ What's important about travelling is Click Here and how it can transform our life. Normally people who used to travel is an Open Minded person where they learn about the value of Respect, Value of Life, Value of other people. Don't believe me? Try to be friend with those who travel often ... they see life in a different perspective!

Even with domestic travelling is good enough for you to see the other side of the country to at least Learn a new thing in Life!! I personally had travel around East Malaysia (Sabah & Sarawak) and few of West Malaysia (Peninsular). -meeting new friends- Get connection!! 

My first overseas Country that i visited is Philippines (Clark & Manila) with a group of church people that i never met before. Then I visited Brunei (visiting Fr. Paul, a priest that i met during that Philippines trip) and visited Australia ( Doing PRH Courses suggested by Fr. paul) - can you see how everything is connecting to one another?). It is the same with domestic travelling where you meet new people that can lead you to a new dimension of how we see life's. I also visited Vietnam Twice last year and wish to do some travelling again soon!!

Like i said Money is the biggest concern when comes to travelling. We always can get information from the tip of our finger isn't it? Here is how to save money tips for travelling, another Blog on saving money tips - this is an interesting blog on how she manage to travel around the world and even quit her job .. a must read blog -. When you do more and more research on how some people who able to travel the world does, most of them do one Thing in life ... SAVING MONEY!! i am learning on it too since it requires self discipline and strategies as well. There are more tips on how to be able to do travelling ... just force your little butt to sit and do research on Google!! -everything about travelling & save while travelling & Adventure in Travelling- Site / blog like this really help you to know more things about travelling. Another Site that might rise up your enthusiasm of traveling is travel Europs for less than 6k.

My 2015 travel plan

Mei - Cambodia & Melbourne & Goal Coast, Australia

June - Phuket & Krabi, Thailand

Sept - Melbourne,Australia (Doing PRH)

Nov - Shenzhen - Shanghai - Beijing

Dec - Land below the wind (My Home Town)

** We plan God Fulfill** When a plan doesn't went well as planned, Be happy because there is always a reason for everything that happens!!**

"I just wanna go on ore adventures. Be around good energy. Connect with people. Learn New things. Grow. -Thekoolhaus-"

"Travel is the only thing you buy that makes you richer"

"Travel: Explore/Embrace/Learn/Live"

P/s: Wow couldn't believe i share more about travelling. 

P/s: Will continue about
* Motivating
* Having Variety in Life
* Personal growth ...............................................................................SOON.......

Till Then!!

~m3@~

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13 March 2015

When I grow older i found out that it is some how easier for me to know what i love doing and what was the things that when i do it, able to make me happy and feeling satisfied with a great fulfillment in life.

Here's the list of things that i wanted to do and have fulfillment in life:-
* Reading
* Writing
* Thinking ( doing statistic)
* Travelling
* Motivating
* Having Variety in Life
* Personal growth

Reading 

I can barely recalled how did i fall to the habit of reading. But i remember reading Malay novel when i was in secondary school and i love visiting the library ( Even can spent the whole day in the Library - Reading- ). I change my reading preferences from Malay Novel to English novel when i realized that there were not much different in Malay Novel story walk through from one novel to another - sometimes i can correctly guess the ending of the story as well-  So i decided to tried reading an English story book even though i am not good in English. (* There is a story behind on how i realized the fact that English is a very interesting and abstract languages to learn - might write about it in my next entry-)

Mary Kate & Ashley Story books became my favorite story books during my secondary school. I love reading about their life stories as a twin. Even though they were twin sister's but they have different personality. They even cheated at their identity ( changed identity ) in schools. This was the most amazing story books that i found suit my younger age interest. 

I cultivated my reading interest and reading desire while i was in my second University year. I had a boyfriend back then - he loves reading and writing as well. He was excellent in English and i somehow motivated by him - indirectly - . During our University time, we loves spending our time in the library. he will be doing his Law assignment and i will be doing my revision as well. Most of our free time, we will be spending it in the library. I remember a day when i feel boring waiting for him to finish his work, i simply grabbed a red color thick story book entitle - The diary - . The book was about the real life's story of the writer (which i forgot the name). I love the book very much. I read it far from his study table because i don't want to be disturbed. That was a great book so far and i ended up lending the book and finished reading it in two days time. 

After my experience with that book, i started looking for other interesting story book and read it while waiting for my boyfriend every time we spent time together in the library. I finished reading my second English novel entitle - The Princes Diaries - for a whole day morning until evening in the library. I also started to talk about what i had read ... telling the story to my boyfriend until one day he asked " What is the movie title?" and i answered him "I didn't watch movie, i read the book". Its amazing how i can retold the book summary as if i am watching a movie. That was a happy moment for me and i continued reading until now. 

I wouldn't even mind spending my money on books. Up to now i had bunch of English motivational book - Robert Kiyosaki on financial - John C. Maxwell on Leadership - Oprah Winfrey on life's experiences and more. I also keen to romance story book as well. I felt that reading really make my brains processing, thinking and learning...i also can practice my imagination and at time become emotional when reading as if i am the Heroin of the story.  

Writing / Blogging

Writing: To share anything in words ... 

I never really do perfect writing, keeping a journal or keeping a diary during the period of my growing age. I don't even know exactly what to write and how to write. all the while I had been thinking that writing is hard especially when it comes to giving out personal opinion. I really hate writing before because it needs my concentration and i am scared of making mistake. That feeling of afraid of making mistake is actually killing my creativity in expressing out my opinion and finally lead to low self confident. But i tell you what i always want to share things through writing but unfortunately i just lack of the resources on how to write and what to write. I usually feel dissatisfied with  my own writing  and that dissatisfaction (negativity) is just silence down my desire of writing. 

I started to have the confident in writing from my ex-boyfriend. Well he is a thinker ( at least that what i think he was ) and he loves expressing things or matters in a piece of papers. He even can Write from one pages to another pages and more pages.  I love to read his articles and the way how he really brings out things and discuss them in writing. I wonder how did he manage to write so freely and openly? Then i realized that writing is not about following any rules like what being taught in schools. Writing is to let go of what you feel and what you think in your own perfect words and with your own perfect way. Everyone have the ability to write since everyone have the ability to think and to speaks. The only matter that arises is the willingness to write or not to write. 

I had been starting having this blog in 2009 and its been 5 years since i practice my writing. Amazing enough that i am improving each year. Improving in term of vocabulary and confident level... i can freely write whatever i want now. The process of learning takes time .. keep on going because every successful person begins with mistake and failure. 

I am inspired by Muhamad Hafiz bin Ismail Life through my eyes blog. I was walking front and fort in a bookstore when i spotted his book Life through my eyes 2 with 214 pages. He inspired others from his blog pages and even able to published his blog into a book. Without hesitation i bought his book the same day and both his book and blog become my references and inspiration in doing more blogging and writings. 

For those who have the desire of writing... follow your heart and instinct. WRITE!! do Blogging!! share something because no one else see the world the way you do and no one else tells the story that you have to tell ... start writing. I admitted that there are more room of improvement for me in writing especially with my grammar but doesn't matter...There are always an editor behind a great article!! And here 15 reasons why you should start blogging and i agreed with the writer!!

P/s : To be continued with:-
* Thinking ( doing statistic)
* Travelling
* Motivating
* Having Variety in Life
* Personal growth
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Till my next entry !!

~m3@~

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I feel so GOOD after church today. 

Good: Happy, alive, grateful, lively, sociable, positive, valued ... every positives feelings is in me now!! Why wouldn't i when i have the opportunity to talk, to hug, to laugh, to gives opinion, sharing with the others church members ~ which makes me feel like Home. (What a wonderful parish) .. okay skip it !!

Today all the Catholics are celebrating the feast of "Our Lady Of Lourdes". Wanna know ore about Lourdes story and why it is celebrated in the church ...here's the link  to it.. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Our_Lady_of_Lourdes#Lourdes_water

For me personally, whatever celebration in the church took place, i would not missed it if possible. If you ask me why? i would tell you one answers .. because that is what i want!! I am not Holy but i am spiritually driven (Not all those who come to the church are H.O.L.Y or G.O.O.D .. nobody is perfect ~ want to know if you are good enough/perfect? Try walking on waters!! ) .. yeah i admitted anyway.. i am not Holy and i am not good enough but church is where i find PEACE and LOVE!! ~ i refer the statement to St. Micheal church Specifically because i truly experienced love, confident & relationship in here!!  

To make the story short, during the light refreshment after the mass, happen to talk to few church members ... exchanging opinion, exchanging praises, exchanging good positives words.. on of the church members asked me:

He : Are you a Writer?

Me : No!! you read my blog? Oooo its full of grammatical error!!

He : Doesn't matter!!  You highlighted the important thing in your blog..

Me : Owh Thank You!!

 **I feel appreciated** 

***Conversation continue with different topic****

Now i was thinking ... May be i am not a writer yet but if i keep practicing my writing and discover which areas of writing that i am good with, i might become a true writer some day!! May be a motivational writer ?? who knows?? ~Nothing is impossible anyway!!

Everyone have their own strength in life. Each one of us in this world, have the ability to be positive and motivated. But the Big Question is How To be positive and how to stay positive?  ~ I tell you .. do small positive act each day and the Big positive will come uninvited to your life. What do i mean by small positive act? well try this ... SMILE to strangers and to the people around you!! that's the most basic positive act that will slowly transform how you reacted to the surrounding. And more importantly :~ Think Positive and Positive thing will happens!!

~Learn from Gandhi~

~m3@~

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Back from the Church, i cant wait to return home, turn on my laptop, sitting in front of it and start writing /sharing information about Father Mark Formation Talk. It was a beautiful and mind working session... but what happens was, i lacked of writing idea's and ended up saving the post in my draft box. Here i am again trying my best, continue writing & editing what is necessary. Before jumping to what the Formation all about, let me introduce you to Father Mark...

This is Father Mark!! He is a young, good looking priest serving In St. Micheal Alor Setar Church. I never really have any direct communication with him yet. Most Of the time, i shared or whined things to Father Marshall the Parish priest. Normally, Father Mark ways of giving homily is relating the gospel reading with the real life situation and most of the time concerned more on personal development topic. (Well, Personal development is a general topic and i am slowly learning on it ... one of my way to really live with everyday personal growth / development is with doing a personal writing analysis based on PRH method ...http://www.prhaustralia.com/#!publications/c1zmy ... Writing it really help!!)

Now that you know Father Mark, lets jump to the Formation content that He highlighted in the session:- (**Note that this post consist of  Religion teaching since i am sharing about Life Reflection Topic in a Catholic way)

My Role & My Vocation:-

Being a Catechism teacher, teacher need to be clear about their role & life Vocation. It is because, what they plant today is what they harvest later. Whatever teaching they taught in class, act / values that they shown to the children, they will imitate & copy paste it into their life. 

"The law of harvest is to reap more than you sow. Sow an act, and you reap a habit. Sow a habit and you reap a character. Sow a character and you reap a destiny. ~James Allen~"

Having a role as a catechism Teacher is a very important task!! Fr. Mark highlighted Three things to shows if the teacher are  really into the Vocation:- 

1. Be willing to learn:- Have the continuous spirit to learn about God, to talk about god as a mystery. in fact we are learning everyday.

2. Love for the Children:- Love them as you love your own child. Children want to see a happy teacher. Show them love and appreciation & they will do the same to others.

3. Have an experience of God:- Most people "Know About God" and only few "Know God"... start asking question about what is your personal experience of God? Learn to do reflection & Discernment.

All teachers are paying attention to Fr. Mark session. Partner Sharing, Video showing & songs are the tools that being used during the session. Based on the video & Song , Teachers required to write and do some reflection based on 5 question given.. (Well will share to you what are the questions right after this)...Fr. Mark said, we need to ask those 5 question in our daily life in order to learn and grow...Learning process differ between ages, as an adult, we tend to learn on things that has something to do with our life ... things that interest us and effected our life!! 

Before i share on the five essential questions of Learning & Growing, let me share about the Technic of sharing during the session. The Sharing Principals itself totally not much different with PRH concept where, it is advisable to only share what had been written and listen attentively when others are sharing. (This is a very good way of practicing good listening skills). Here are the example of the questions given during sharing  activities:- 

* Write down one particular experience of God in your life. (Share it to your partner)
*In the sharing, what did you know about God? (From your Partner sharing)
* What did you discover about yourself? (From your sharing)
**This is also a way of doing reflection in our daily life**
Pictures of Sharing activities;-

"The delights of self-discovery are always available."~Gail Sheehy~

5 Essential Question of Learning & Growing (For Adult)

a) What new thing did i/you learn?

b) What did i find interesting?

c) How is it relevant to life?

d) How is it relevant to ...(What you are doing now? eg. Catechetics) 

e) What i didn't understand?

**Try asking and answering these questions in your daily life and you will see how much you progress and growing each day** 

2 Peter 3:18
but grow in the grace and knowledge of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ To Him be the glory, both now and to the day of eternity. 

~m3@~

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While goggling on "ways to ... " the words "How to get Over Your First Love" and all stuffs about broken relationship appeared on my computer screen ... it is not that i intentionally looking for it but then i can't let my finger from not to click one of link on How To Get Over Your First Love / Ex.

http://www.wikihow.com/Get-Over-Your-First-Love 

This link is very useful and informative only for those who ( girl / boy) still can not let go on their past relationship and may be also a good site for those who was in counseling / psychology line of career. Well let me share with you on my own experienced.

I do encountered with this so called "Broken Heart"  feeling and seriously i tell you IT IS DAMN HURT like the ground is not where you belongs and everything surrounds you is HELL. Your LOGIC are out and Your DESIRE to DIE are strong. WEAK, ANGER, PAIN, TEARS,LONELY will become your very best friend on that moments. Everything you do is not right and you prefer to lay on your bed with your pillows on your face Crying ... crying ... and crying and Sometimes You just want to go for some hidden places to SCREAM and SCREAM like no one care for you. Foods in front of you, you tend to imagine on His Damn Smiling Face and you have no appetite on touching it. Every minutes pass is so damn long to you and your mind can't keep on thinking of HIM, Missing Him and everything is HIM HIM and HIM and wanted your relationship with him to be BACK. Obviously, your body will slowly and slowly loss on weight. Such situation will last long until you recover ... say may be months or more worse years ...  (This is so true) ... What more for the FIRST LOVE. (~#~). AGAIN??? [I am imagining on my past Relationship]

Okay Okay!! Stop the CRAPs ... Wow ... wow ... wow ... come on guys don't be so emotional. For All the brokenhearted readers ... don't frown!! OWH ... This is NOT how the Stories ended .... You See the truth is ~~~>>

           [ No one, No body, not a single one of us will RUN from this natural Feeling.]

I mean whats the point on Hurting your self for something stupid. Just admit it that all human kind will ALL end up facing the same ISSUES. its normal in life. IF there is no BROKEN HEART so we will never learn and experienced the HURT itself. Take it into consideration before you wasting your pearl tears on SOMEONE.

People ... i know it hard to LET GO but believe me ... When you PRAY harder and BELIEVE GOD is there to hear you. You will heal. You will not forget but you will Accept the fact that ITS OVER. Of course the MEMORIES still there ... just keep that memories as your JOURNEY on EARTH.

I never exactly  know how I managed to ACCEPT the reality that "HE IS NOT MINE" anymore but i do believe on PRAYER. Make sure when you pray ... pray for The person (Your ex) happiness in life and with time you will let go for there must be reasons why He is not Yours. CORRECT?

Chill Up.... Be positive ... and if you still can't assure yourself on what to do to get over your ex/1st love than the link i show earlier will somehow help you.

~Me@~

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Febuary for some people are "loveable" or "exciting" month because Valentine day fall on this month every year. How was you out there enjoy the day and the month? My imagination come like this ~~~~>>Walking hand to hand in the evening at the beach, sharing their love witness by the dawn and listening to the sea air blowing through their every step or having a romantic dinner in a fine and nice restaurant with a candlelight in the middle of the table and drinking and old age wine? Emmm It all about ROMANTIC and LOVE isn't it? Lucky for those new wed couple (like two of my friend) ... they sure enjoy this Febuary as a Honeymoon month. LOL. Owh!! not to forget my ex-BF ... Happy belated Valentine day to him and his new GirlFriend. (~Sincere wish~). And for my future BoyFriend .. Happy Valentine Day !!! Hahahahhah.

As for myself, My Febuary is not as romantic as what had some of you feel. I am stuck with my busy Febuary with my office task, all those tiring Outstation and a week of Personal Financial courses. What a tiring Month for me huh!! Also i had made up my mind entering a part time Intensive English Course at KCC starting from this Month (Febuary) till middle of April.

Even though i miss my Romantic moment for my own self but yet i truly grateful for i learned lot more new thing this Month. With my business and tiring days ... i meet more new acquaintance and new purposed in life. Thanks To FEBRUARY for everything.

Yet, I spent my Valentine Alone this year.

~m3@~

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Hey all,

Its been a month since my last post isn't it? I wonder how was everyone out there doing? To start my story, i've been quiet Buzy for the past month and expected to be buzy till the end of the Year 2011. This is normal in adultary life i guess ... especially to every working people. Like me, i've been involved with lots of outstation to Ranau, Pagalungan, Tawau and Sarawak. I enjoyed my work eventhough it was teriffically tiring.

Well, in this short period of time, not only i am buzy with my daily sceduled but also i am inchaged with problem (small and big) that coming non stop into my life ... and i admit these are all also normal in our living. Without the appearance of Mr Problem ... i guess you and i will never grew matured. But then most of the time, i persist on ignoring those problem and some of it flew without solution. ( I am not a good problem solver hihi) As Saying goes "time will heal" .. and thanks to Time because it really does heal the situation.

You know, sometimes come to the extent in which i felt " it is much more better if i don;t exist". I am tired of seeing , hearing, doing, acting and thinking of myself and people around me. untrustworthy, unloyal and betraying friend that i had ... I am tired of all this. Having a pet is more joyful than having a friend. But still I am happy that i had two best friend of me that never betray nor unloyal to  me. Thanks God i meet them,

Let stop talking about what i just wrote ... Since it is the countdown to Christmas, i realized that i haven't write or post any chirstmas wish to my families and relatives. Hope this coming Chirstmas Brings more joy and abundance in you and my life. MERRY CHRISTMAS in advanced.

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Nothing special happened today. I overslept till 10am and miss the Sunday Mass. My sister went  to work at 2pm and i spend my day watching korean movie via Youtube. It tooks me  long hours in order to finished watching 1 full movie because my Celcom broadband exceeded my daily GB usaged. Damn!!

Owh my Housemate (next rome) returned from Kampung. I heard her cleaning and washing. She is weird i guess ... barely speak and smile, and sometimes talk to the phone too loud (querral with her BF may be...). Regarding to my sister's, she did not answers question correctly. eg: Sister:: "Any rats problem in ur room?" "She::"yeah!! the Cockroach deserved to die" ... ???? what comes to your mind with that situation??

No one ring or text me today. Everybody was buzy with their own life. Gotta go ... my movie is playing now.

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Its Saturday and i don't feel the needs of getting out from my room. Moreover the novel that i told you i am about to read yesterday distract me from letting go of my eyes from it. "Wishes - Jude Deveraux" was a good novel. I love the characters the author put in the story and the plot of the story was fantastic. The author successfully invites me to read each words and each sentences so keenly and attentively. I hate Nellie younger sister's, Terel for her jealousy and wickedness. She was one who can pretend to be so saintly in front but so heinous at the back. However, ending of the story was very interesting and Terel received what she deserved for while Nellie eventually married to her dreams Mr. Charming and live happily after. Haha !! You need to read it by yourself for you to feel the amusement when reading it. Owh!! i finished reading the whole story at 6pm. (whole day reading worth pain to my back bones) huhu.

My sister came back from attaining the Saturday church at 2pm and she ended up taking her nap till 4.30pm. Her work scheduled today was at 5pm till 10pm. I was thinking of spending my night at the 1 Borneo watching movie so doing some window shopping but i am too lazy to step out from the main door. I rather spending my time reading and face booking than shopping alone and wasting money. ~~> i get my point so clear do i?? haha.

Owh forget about one thing. Samuel (my online friend) keeps calling me since yesterday and i makes all his calls "ignored". I never meet him personally you know. I knew him through chatting and face book. He was nice but uhh!! complicated to tell. Wish i never meets him in person either intentionally nor unintentionally. Ahh!! forget about him.

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